if you saw someone in the street like that would you think like "oh she's fat" "how can she go in public chubby like that" "i look better than her haha"?
like i used to be like at bmi of 19-20 but this year i had a binging relapse and now i'm at 24-25ish and i look so gross now. i haven't really gone out much since i hit a bmi of 22-23 cos most of my clothes didn't fit right anymore and i feel to chubby to go outside. to me i can't go in public if i dont look pretty. now i'm too fat to be cute and look good and clothes and stuff :/
i really really want to lose the weight (please dont tell me stuff about like you dont need to lose weight please dont thats more annoying that anything) and i'm trying to, dont want to live like this. i want to go outside to take long walks and stuff to help with losing weight. but i'm to scared people are going to think about how fat i am and look down on me, and i dont want to be less pretty than the other girls if i go out. what do you think? like be honest if you think that my weight is disgusting say it, i already think that anyways and i'm deadset on getting back to my weight
