How to attract a 53 year old man if I'm 22?

karla1527
OK, girls don't hate me for this, but he has been married with his wife for 27 years and has a 20 year old who's majoring at the same thing I did. And I should say that I have never had a boyfriend or even have this kinds of feelings for someone. I would have never thought that this older man would become my first crush ever but it happened. I recently started working at this office, and this guy is very sociable, loud, speaks up whatever comes to his mind, he looks very confident in his own skin and has this dirty side that I love. He is practically the only person in the office who talks to me more besides a "good morning". At first, he asked me questions about school, teachers, subjects(His son goes to the same school I did, and so did he 30 years ago), I guess he wanted advice on how to relate better with his son. We can talk from funny hilarious things to really deep ones.

The first three days we started talking he offered me a ride home, even when I said that he didn't have to, he insisted and w had great conversations on the way home. After that, he stopped talking to me for like a whole week, that really turned me down, I felt a little upset by that. After that week, things were back to normal between us. We have talked about personal stuff, both of us. When we talk, I can't help to have this smile just by looking at him, he just makes my day every day. He has a ditsy nasty side of him that I love, even if I don't show it, when he makes a comment like that, I just pretend I'm embarrassed or ashamed and look somewhere else smiling. There is physical contact when we talk, he hits me on my hands or shoulders and sometimes grabs my hair.

So, I need advice on this:

I am a 22 year old virgin, and recently I have been fantasizing about having an affair with him, I can't stop thinking about it. So I made up my mind and decided that I would love to lose my virginity to him. I don't want him to look me on a paternal kind of way, but I want him to think of me as a woman. I want him to realize that I am, like sexually available for him, but I'm waaaaay too shy to make a move on him. I wanna make a first move, but not aggressively or sleazy, just discreet enough for him to fill in the blanks. I really believe there is great chemistry between us. And at the end, I know I can't ask for too much from a relationship with him, I guess that I just want to have sex with him, once or many times if he likes, I would practically let him do anything he wants with me.

I also know that he had an affair in the past that almost cost him his marriage and son.

I must say again, that I'm really uber shy, and I just feel ashamed of me of thinking about this man like I do.

A word of advice for this hopeless shy virgin?

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I even found myself grooming more just for him. I try to have the perfect hair, the perfect make up just for him. I'm pathetic I know, but I have a history of never wanting to do things just for being afraid of being wrong, failure and rejection over that
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He doesn't look 53 at all, perhaps 40 and very well taken. I catch him staring at me all the tiime, he just smiles and I smile back. I see him like avoiding me now lol, I can't make him want me, if he backs off so will i. will just have to wait and (cont)
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see what happens from now on. Will keep updated:)
How to attract a 53 year old man if I'm 22?
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