He kissed me!! I have a crush on my best friend. So what do I do if he asks me out? HELP!!

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(6/18/11)Here's the story: I am 16 years old. My best friend is a guy and I have known him since I was 11, you know the type, the one that thinks you are only friend material you can joke around with him and its not considered flirting. Well he came over to my house around 8 the other night to borrow something of mine. He stayed for a while just to hang out. My mom was home but she was tired so she went to bed. His mom wasn't going to pick him up until 10 for reasons that take to long to explain. Anyway, we were on youtube watching some videos and I hear this little meow coming from outside. So we went out side to check it out, and there was a kitten under my porch. So I was turning around to go inside to get a flashlight and my friend grabs my hand. I stopped to look at him and he smiled at me and said "come here for a second." He was looking at me in a different way. He put his hands around my waist and pulled me close. Then he leaned in AND HE KISSED ME.

I have kissed guys before so I knew exactly how it worked. But this kiss was different. I have never felt this way when I kissed a guy. It was like butterflies and electric moving through my veins. So I kissed him back, I have always secretly had a crush on him. I have always pictured us kissing but I never actually thought it would happen unless I made the first move. It was a passionate kiss. And I think I might be falling in love with him.

(6/20/11) Now it has been 2 days since the kiss. I haven't seen my friend at all but we have been texting and Facebooking each other. He told me that I was the best kisser. We are both really busy with work and other things. He says he wants to see me again, but this time he wants me alone. I want to see him too, I want to feel that feeling again.

Something you need to know: My friend has a really bad reputation. Everyone thinks he is a perv. He has had tons of girlfriends and he isn't a virgin. I'm not sure how many girls he has had sex with and I won't ask him because that isn't my business. But I know that once you do it you want to do it again and again. (Not speaking from experience. I am a virgin and I plan to stay that way until my wedding night).

The problem: What if he asks me out? I don't know if I am ready to date him yet. You know how they say you should marry your best friend right? Well I want to spend the rest of my life with him and I am afraid that if we start dating in high school that everything will fall to pieces. There are so many girls that would start crap with me if I was dating him. He is always the one at the center of all the drama.

My plan: if he asks me out I am going to tell him the truth. I will tell him I have had a crush on him forever and I don't think now I the right time for us to date. I will tell him that I will wait for him and after high school we can date because I'm not ready for him yet.

What do you think I should do?
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(6/23/11) last night he came to fix my computer. And we kissed again. I really don't know how this is going to turn out but I really think I am falling in love with him. I cannot stop thinking about him. My feelings for him are really hard to explain because I don't think there are words to explain what I feel for him.
He kissed me!! I have a crush on my best friend. So what do I do if he asks me out? HELP!!
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