Why I Hate When He Tells Me I'm Beautiful

[Anonymous]

"Guess what?" He says.

"What?"

"You're beautiful."

"And you're full of shit." I nastily reply.

I hate it when he says that. I hate hearing him say it. I feel it validates me not bettering myself, not getting my body back to how it used to be. I feel it's like he's saying I shouldn't feel bad about being sub-par. I believe I should. On society's terms, I'm not. I feel like shit.

My self-esteem is so low that I can't stand the thought of my boyfriend lying to me when he says I'm beautiful.

I don't know why I base my entire worth on how my body looks, but I do. Furthermore, when it's low enough to where I have no energy or moral motivation to lose weight, or gain muscle or whatever, I'm stuck in a rut of self-hate. He only says I'm beautiful because he's obligated to. I'm sorry, but I don't want to be loved solely for my personality. I want to be appreciated for my body before all else. The one thing I want to hear, I don't believe.

These are the confessions of the most superficial person I know...me.

[aficionado]

You probably need professional help, if your self esteem is THAT low.

I went through a long phase of feeling extremely unattractive as well, and had to seek help.

[Anonymous]

he needs to find a new girlfriend cause you are too fd up in the head

[Anonymous]

Ok, good luck with everything!