Did she lead me on or did jump the gun too soon?

Anonymous
I have liked this girl from work for quite a while and we’ve kissed on two occasions over the space of three months. When we first started working together I gathered that she liked me, although she would be quite shy/awkward I thought it was easy to pick up on signals ie-staring, constantly being around you without talking etc.
Kiss 1- We had a work night out, we were both quite drunk, but she confessed her feelings for me that night and she instigated a kiss, but I did not follow through on her comments in days/weeks after all alcohol was involved and we all say stuff when we’re drunk.
Problem 1- As the weeks went by post kiss it started to get extremely awkward between us, it got to a stage where she wouldn’t even acknowledge me when I said hi to her. I gathered it was because I didn’t show her enough attention post kiss but a mutual friend talked to her and she said that was not the case.
Kiss 2- Last week we had another work night out, we weren’t as drunk as the last time and come the end of the night she pulled me aside for a talk. She brought up what I said to our mutual friend and was very interested in how I felt about the “situation” and her. I admitted my feelings and she also said she liked me, and once again she made a move on me for a kiss and I obviously obliged.
Problem 2- I’m out of work for a week atm and felt the need to text her before we see each other again to see where I stand. I did I told her that I liked her a lot and that I’d like to bring her for a drink. She said she was shit at giving mixed signals (you don’t say) and was only out of a “thing”, which I understand she is. To put it politely I was rejected lol.
Conclusion- Is it understandable for me to be confused rn? Like Jesus Christ my feelings are all over the place and I feel like it didn’t really bother her. Would a girl really say all those things and kiss you twice if she wasn’t interested? Does she need time to find what she wants and find herself? Any advice would be great.
Did she lead me on or did jump the gun too soon?
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