To make a (very) long story short, we have been on a push and pull for half a year. She aggressively flirted with me (touched a ton and kept suggesting to go here and there); and I tried to flirt back (not very good at it though).
Most of the time though, it was her being very hot and me being very cold; because whenever I'm very hot, she was very cold... so I guess we're not really in sync because we keep thinking the other isn't interested. It was a constant loop like this for months.
Anyways, I decided to ask her out. She told me I was very smart, very hardworking, very kind and that she knows I'll go places in my career. That she's very fond of me and that I make her feel happy.
She declined me and said she had a boyfriend. I felt really devastated, but at the same time I kind of doubted she has one. She never mentioned having a boyfriend when we talk, nor to our mutual friends. She said she hoped to stay as good friends. I told her good luck with her boyfriend and hope her work gets easier (she has heavy workload).
I decided to take her seriously anyway and try to move on. I blocked her on all social media. I want to be friends with her but from experience, it's really painful to be friends with somebody who you know picked someone else.
I've always wondered if I really loved her or if I was only infatuated. The past month I started to realize I really do have genuine feelings for her. We saw each other at an event. We only greeted each other once. The rest, she would look at me for a couple of seconds then look away when we get eye contact. Glance at me. Turn her head to look at me then turn away.
I wasn't able to say farewell in person, but I texted her to stay safe and be careful when she went back home at night. She replied "hey, thank you! have fun at work :)" (was about to go into night shift).
She travels a total of 6 hours whenever she goes to work during Fridays. I want to text her to be careful and stay safe. Is that creepy? Thanks for reading.
