ok so i turn 18 next week and i know the legal age to drink is 21. so i made a friend about two weeks ago and we’ve been super close. and it was refreshing to have a friendship where you don’t talk shit about each other or about other people. anyway she went into her room/her roommate came in too and they drunk alcohol. now i was offered some and i only drink 4 TINY sips just because i was curious of the taste. normally i’m not the person to do drinking or smoking. but i felt a bit empowered that i was doing something that I wanted to do. but then my friend group called me and i answered, i wasn’t drunk but i sounded drowsy because i was tired and i told them that. so i go up to the room, chill, and excited to talk to my friends. They all give me weirded out/judgy looks and don’t say anything for a second. And they’re like “girl what are you doing” and they were saying i wasn’t being safe around the people i took drinks with. and that bc i’m always making sure my friends are safe that i can’t do stuff like that? i can tell they care a bit but it still made me feel like a horrible person for even taking 3 sips. it was funny too because one of my friends who said that, was the same one who asked to come drink with me. And now they’re claiming i’m being fake, and not talking to them anymore but the reason for that because i don’t feel 100% comfortable and safe being friends. it’s always someone in the group talking about each other, treating someone else horribly, messing things up for someone, so me making another friend makes sense. but yeah i feel guilty and bad for even taking 4 sips, how do i get rid of that guilt.