Girls, I think I should leave all together?

[Brokenheart14]

I care for this girl a lot. Lately I feel like I’m in left field. I respected her and never brought up anything like sex and just let things play out. I allowed insecurities to ask stupid questions and she said she has been straight up and would tell me if anything was wrong. Lately it takes her longer to reply to text, she does have a lot going on with health and school but I still feel something is off nowadays. She said she didn’t want to lose me so I don't know if I’m in my head or if she is keeping me on the back burner. She still text in length and emojis but I still feel the way I do? Should I drop her all together for my own sake? I’m trying to be a friend but it’s severely killing me I’ve grown to like her, and at this time she said she can’t do a relationship cause of everything going on in her life, part of me feels it’s also letting me down softly. I’m confused

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She told you her answer. What’s the quote🤔 “don’t make a person show you twice that they don’t want you”. She told you she can’t have a relationship or it’s not the right time becoming she’s busy. Yes, I know you like her sometimes it’s hard to let it go because you started liking her. But do what’s best for you! If this situation isn’t helping you in anyway then leave it alone. Let her be. Live you’re life and just be focus on what’s going on with you! Maybe it’s not the right timing for y’all. But for now just accept what she told you. But sending positive vibes 🌸😌

[Brokenheart14]

Thanks for the reply, last weekend she told me she didn’t want to lose me but I need to prove myself, because I fucked up and let some insecurities show is this also good or?

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If you made a mistake and you’re sorry and you want to show her you’re better than do that. You can but if she can’t get over it and she keeps having you “prove yourself” wouldn’t that be kind of draining? But on the other perspective is she worth your time? Does she bring value to your life? I had someone once tell me “I want a relationship where it’s as easy as breathing” meaning yes there will be some conflict at times. But if this situation is making me upset and interrupting my peace is it really worth it? I don’t think anything is wrong to fight for something you want. But what are you fighting for if she’s not ready for a relationship yet but she’s doesn’t want to lose you? If you’re okay with being just friends I would say then be friends. But if it’s hard to be just that I would kind of keep my distance and focus on your own life. Apologize for the mistake and let her know you’re better than that and show her as well. I’m kind of like if she doesn’t want a relationship why is she wanting you to prove yourself? Part of me feels like that’s an excuse to be like you need work on you’re self and she isn’t ready for a relationship with you. But do be careful because some people want people as options. Just someone to have around while they find someone else or use when they are bored.

[Brokenheart14]

She seems like she’s been pretty striaght forward with me she talked to me on the phone a few times about it. But she got pissed when I asked again. I come from horrible past relationships where I literally have felt so worthless. But she suffers some major health issues that is kinda the reason she backed off it got bad again a few weeks ago. She called me after she got out of hospital. I have apologized and did a better one and told her I want her in my life and she said she didn’t want to lose me I told her I’d be better and she said I needed to prove it. It’s only been about a week. So I don't know if I’m expecting a miracle over night but I’m not patient and I need to be