I think I am emotionally immature, and socially awkward. What can I do?

[foxsquirrell]

I think I have trouble understanding and controlling my emotions. I often don't know why I'm feeling what I am feeling. And in social situations I feel so awkward. Not normal. I notice myself not having anything to say while I notice others almost instantly connect with each other and start chatting and enjoying there time. I just find all the talk trivial and uninteresting all the time and can't understand how they are having such a good time together. Like for example, we met for dinner with a group of about 10 (a rare event for me) and I suffered being there. I had to wonder away with my own thoughts in silence to get me away from the feeling of being disconnected from everyone.

And recently I tried going to a club just as an experiment to see. I enjoyed the music and the vibe but at the same time I just became so down and felt depressed inside, gutted, because still I somehow felt like a misfit. I guess one girl was interested and came dancing very close to me with her hair practically flying in my face left and right more and more but I just felt so awkward, and had no idea how to get along with this stranger. I would have loved to feel her you know, and perhaps started kissing her, but I just did not know exactly what she wanted, and what should I do. Its just totally hopeless for me I feel :( I think I missed an opportunity. :( It was emotionally cruel to stand there helpless and have to just leave away before I saw her leave :(((

I feel so hopeless at socializing.

Any suggestions, any diagnoses to what I might or might not be? :(

[rox00]

i am going through the same situation in school. i'mma explain the whole story, i like a girl in my class, her roll no. Is next to me and i have a male bestfriend in other section i told him everything thing and he one day messaged her that i like her and i have been missing opportunities to talk to her one day she went for a art competition and she came back to school and outside the school she were walking with one of her friend right in front of me and my friend was with me he even pushed me to go talk to her and then she suddenly took a step back, i don't know why, was she giving me space to com talk to her or just it's random I don't know but i didn't talk to her that day instead i switched direction and went home. I still regret not talking to her that day and i will regret it for my life :).

One day after the school got over everyone was walking down the stairs in a line and she was reading a book while getting down and then she fell one stair and sat down but she didn't hurt herself and i ran there but i didn't do nothing her friends were laughing and she was sitting on the floor and she was saying "i didn't fell i just sat on the floor" then a teacher helped her get up (i regret not helping her get up because of social anxiety, i really wanted to help but everyone was looking at her that made me socially awkward so i just walked past her :). after we reached outside the school i asked her if she's okay and she said 'i didn't fell i just sat on the floor' and started recreating how her foot slipped to show me and her friend and then after this i just said nothing and changed direction :). I hope you feel me..

[foxsquirrell]

Yeah man, I think I understand you. Its just so confusing for people like us who feel detached from almost everyone. Its hard to find someone who clicks with you. Best of luck.

[Reem12345reem]

are u an introvert? if so , then ur most likely to be a narcissist

[foxsquirrell]

Yes, I think I am an introvert. But how does being an introvert mean that you are a narcissist? And how do you know about these things at only 15 years of age?

[Reem12345reem]

i took a 5 day therapy course and a lot of experience about this

[foxsquirrell]

Are you a narcissist? Where did you go for the therapy? Did the therapy work? Did it help you?

[Reem12345reem]

I meant i took a therapy course to heal people so i know what traumas people have by the behaviours and other things , so far it works

[foxsquirrell]

I am curious. So why would I not dance with the girl as a narcissist? I am assuming that you have read the whole story I posted and you know what I am talking about.

[foxsquirrell]

I mean I wanted to I just could not see how to connect or interact with her.

[mandyfire98]

Have you ever heen tested to see if you might be on the spectrum?

[foxsquirrell]

No I haven't! Sounds like a good idea though. It did cross my mind a few times that I might be a bit ADHD or something. A teacher once told me that she noticed me kind of like fidgeting in my chair and not being focused.

[mandyfire98]

It's definitely worth checking out. It will at least give you some understanding

[foxsquirrell]

Thank you. I think I need to. I'll do some research and see where I can find some professional help.