Implication of physical abuse?

My partner has never actually hit me, but on a couple of occasions when I've really annoyed him; he's raised his fist and bit his lower lip as if he's had to really restrain himself from punching me. Am I right to still be devastated and hurt by this? Or is he in any way right by explaining it as a good thing, as despite how angry I made him... He managed to stop himself from doing it. I'm pretty sure I'm being gaslighted but I feel like I'm going crazy some days.
Implication of physical abuse?
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