Can anyone make any sense of this? I'm confused and hurt. And where do I go from here? Should I try again with talking to him?

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So I have a co-worker who I'd been pretty close with but things have been rocky. I just posted about him this morning, but with a narrow topic. I wanted to go broader though. We were partners for awhile, & got continually closer. I know things about him I doubt most people do, he knows things about me that no one else does. We held hands one day, would get mad at each other, mess with each other, the whole works. We're both introverts with deep self esteem & trust issues, & we both hate eating in from of others, but especially him, so it never bothered me tons that he didn't want to do much outside of work. His excuses were always really good, too. We were fine at work, he'd call me dude, laugh when others messed with me... people have literally said we should get married.

But I'm so confused and honestly hurt right now. Things have been weird with us for several weeks. Kinda rollar coaster-y. He definitely avoided me for a bit. Body language *usually* says we're at least good. We were split up as partners & I got really insecure about it, which didn't help, & I think I've been annoying him with it. I've made it known kind've a lot that I'm not happy about being moved for several different reasons. I've been overly apologizing, picking, etc. I haven't been the easiest, because I know something is wrong & I overcompensate.

Anyways, he hasn't been wanting to listen as much, he blocked me on twitch (although the one time I was on there wasn't the *best* behavior. That probably annoyed him but he wouldn't talk about it), & he hasn't accepted my Facebook request.

He says we're fine. But we're not, & I don't really know how to fix it besides giving him space. Which is easy some times, but others we have no choice to be in pretty close proximity. I just don't see how our relationship has gone from what it was 3 weeks ago to this. The only thing I can think of is that it's because the co-worker added pressure, or the twitch thing was a final straw.

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One of his friends doesn't like me, & I semi-admitted to a co-worker who kept grilling me that I like him? I was already struggling with depression, so I'm really struggling with this. That might have more to do with it than anything, because so is he. Like he can't handle both of our emotions type of thing. Someone who knows us both was like, "well, maybe he likes you but doesn't think you like him." Which I thought I was being overly obvious? It's taking everything I have to not call him & cry
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Yesterday was totally fine for us by the way. So was Thursday/Friday. Interesting weekend, but that was mostly my fault. I thought we were at least semi-fine until I discovered the social media stuff
Can anyone make any sense of this? I'm confused and hurt. And where do I go from here? Should I try again with talking to him?
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