I met this boy on Hinge. We talked for about two weeks. He wants friends with benefits, but “more of a connection” than a one night stand. I agreed, as I don’t want a boyfriend and he’s lowkey arrogant so I can’t see that in him anyway. I told him I needed to get comfortable with him before hu; he said that was ok and we hung out four times.
He kept telling me he doesn’t like the campus bars because of expensive cover. I was ready to hu with him one night so when I was out last week, I texted him and invited him to hang as friends since cover was free. He said he didn’t feel like it and I guess I got annoyed and became illogical by asking him whether that meant he doesn’t want anything more than a hu.
That made him mad; he then told me he felt he had to constantly validate me and that I stressed him out. I can see how my behavior was toxic and was completely in the wrong. He called me for three hours after basically to just reject me at the end.
I like him and I like his mind. I think he’s great and I want to be friends with him but I’m not sure he wants that anymore. I waited four days before texting him and essentially just apologized; I told him I was selfish, wrong, ignorant and that I know I wasn’t fair to him and just apologized and asked for another chance. It’s been almost a day and he hasn’t read it (his read receipts are on so it’s delivered).
I don’t know why, I’m just really upset over this. Like it’s hard for me to move on and I wish I realized earlier how my behavior was impacting him. He keeps saying I’m not ready to introduce new people into my life. Is there a way to fix this that doesn’t involve letting it go? I don't know what it is; I guess I’ve been feeling touch starved lately and I’m annoyed at myself for not taking the opportunities to hu with him before.
