But at what expense? My own emotions and insecurities. I felt embarrassed telling my friend about it… she didn’t even believe me. Then when we got into it she said how ugly I am and how he would never like someone like me. It hurt a lot bc I wasn’t even trying to talk to him. I payed him no attention at all. I thought it was real
But the killer part is his girlfriend looks nothing like me. She’s blonde hair blue eyes. She models. She’s hot. She’s different. She’s everything I’m not. I can’t help but look at her all the time. Her pics and everything …
I just feel shitty bc I thought maybe I was beautiful. He made me feel like I was