I was thinking that no matter what I do, in this life, on the paper, I will never surpass his success.
He's 6'1". The most desirable men's height to women. Height is one of the most if not the most important trait in men. He's 2-3" taller than the average white guys in the US, which is very attractive trait as an Asian guy because he gives off the impression of being strong able to protect the women due to his size.
I'm 5'6", already short in Asia, let alone in the US and short men are viewed as repulsive by women in the US or other western countries. He can approach any woman from 4'11" - 6'2" but I wouldn't have a good chance with women 5'6.5" and taller because women aren't turned on by men shorter then they are in general. Even shorter girls are more attracted to taller men like him.
Now, forget about facial aesthetics. Chances are his height alone will halo his face and every other trait of his in the eyes of white women and women will also like his face because of big skull and chiseled jaw. I'd be quite lucky if they see my face as equal to his because "All Asian people are look-alike" stereotype. Even if some women finally find my face slightly more attractive than his, it won't outweigh my lack of 7 inches on height over him.
If I was 5'9"-5'10" ( like my father ), I'd have a good chance, because I am now good average height, taller than the majority of women by at least 95%. Daniel Craig, Paul Newman, Richard Gere, Steve Mcqueen, etc are/were that height. I could still beat him by enhancing other traits, but now the height difference is just too big.
I don't know why it happened to me. I mean my father is 5'9"-5'10", my little sister is 5'5". I didn't think God was gonna be this ruthless to me. Now, I will never be given a chance to fix my height, not like poor people who can work harder, not like stupid people who can study more. Things weren't supposed to end up like this. I just can't stand being this height anymore. I didn't expect this at all, I really believed I was gonna be taller than my dead. Ironically, all Asian guys of this generation tower over their father, but in my case my father towers me. My father could live as a normal average man in the US, but not me because I am short and have to face discrimination due my short stature. Please tell me this is a joke.