The security guard told me that one minute I was fine, the girl talked her shit and then I just didn't even look like myself and snapped on all of them. It is not something i would normally do and I feel extremely guilty for it because I know that I can fight and not many people can and it appears that I took advantage of that.. even if they were talking mess, I shouldn't have blacked out and snapped on them. But I also am not sure why I blacked out. I have blacked out before when people disrespect me but only for like a few minutes. Never hours. I am terrified of myself and I do not know what to do to get help seeing as I am already trying to maintain my mental health and have mental health professionals I'm already working with...
I blacked out for 4-5 hours on Saturday?
The security guard told me that one minute I was fine, the girl talked her shit and then I just didn't even look like myself and snapped on all of them. It is not something i would normally do and I feel extremely guilty for it because I know that I can fight and not many people can and it appears that I took advantage of that.. even if they were talking mess, I shouldn't have blacked out and snapped on them. But I also am not sure why I blacked out. I have blacked out before when people disrespect me but only for like a few minutes. Never hours. I am terrified of myself and I do not know what to do to get help seeing as I am already trying to maintain my mental health and have mental health professionals I'm already working with...