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TW: eating disorder

My parents said they needed to talk to me, and said they heard me gagging and throwing up. They said if I was forcing myself to throw up, they'd put me in a psych ward. I told them I had food poisoning from undercooked chicken (checks out, but wasn't true).

Now I don't know if I can get help. I need to tell someone about my bulimia, but I'm scared they'll tell my parents or report me. I can't even google if you can admit someone to the hospital for bulimia (I thought you couldn't) because if I do, they'll know when they check my search history. That's also why I couldn't specify my eating disorder in the title of this question because it would show up on the search history.

I can't get reported because I don't want colleges to change their mind on offering me scholarships in the future (I'm applying for scholarships this year). I'm a sophomore in high school with a 4.0 GPA and my grades are the only thing I have going for me in life. I'm really competitive over it. I don't want this to ruin that.

So I need someone to tell me wtf I'm supposed to do now? If I stop throwing up, I'll fall back into the trap of not eating at all, and I feel like that's worse. I'm really scared I'm going to damage my organs though from throwing up so often.

ohsheeT · Accepted Answer

Let me ask you this. And you have to be honest
When you were born when I was born when everybody was born we are all given a gift that gift is choice.

We get to choose who you want to be in life by the things that we say and that we do.

Now re read your post. As if they were someone else's words.

What you told me in your own words is that you don't want to eat. And that you know your going to have organ failure sometime in life

Weather you know it or not you just told us all your future

Do you have anxiety about going to college is that what you really want to do. Do you know why you don't want to eat.
This is what I feel coming from you. You have so much stress. And anxiety from within and the way to block it is to eat but then you just feel like crap because you have all this chemically left that food inside your body and it just makes you feel terrible so you have to get rid of it and it's a vicious cycle

Do you have any friends that like to party and drink.. it's the fun thing to do every weekend drinking having fun and they don't think twice about..
So what a few beers here and there . They do it because it's fun. everybody party's. And one day some thing happens. They don't drink to party any more. They didn't even see it happening
But now they drink because every pour in there body can't live or function
without alcohol their whole world starts going downhill their organs to start to fail everything starts to fail

4.0 is good. you think ahead not to get caught. With certain things
You know how manipulate people to think you're somebody that you're not

So this means you premeditate things get the outcome you're looking for
To me you sound like you got your shit together you sound like you're very smart very intelligent very wise and I believe that I believe you are

So I would think with all that energy that you're putting into everything that you doing everything that you're putting yourself through and you could take that energy figure out what is making you do the things that you're doing find the cause of it I know that you're smart enough that you can figure it out I know that you're big enough to beat whatever it is that you're going through

Just like that person to parties all the time their time will come when they have to figure it out after they've lost everything became somebody that they're not and basically it was because they were trying to numb their emotions their feelings out and the day that they wake up they're going to realize is they love doing things new things they just went about it the wrong way because alcohol made them feel in the complete opposite of what they were looking for

But that might take that person 20 years to figure it out.

Your on that same path .
And the more you try to lie and cheat and manipulate everybody around you just so you don't get caught because you're not being honest with yourself 20 years is a long time to live through something like this and then your organs will shut down

I don't know what you're running from or even if you're running from something but remember this no matter what you are the only person that lives inside of you you are the only person that understands you you are the only person that can make yourself feel happy or sad there's not one single person in this world they can do that for you because they are not on the inside of you that's where those emotions come from from you the person on the inside happy or sad it's your choice find yourself be honest with yourself

I would bet your a beautiful girl beautiful skin
If you have no water in your body you get dehydrated and your skin starts to grow old your body starts to grow old very very fast
Now let me answer your question
What kind of advice are you looking for

Lynx122 · Accepted Answer

You can delete your search history or search something in incognito mode if you're so worried about your parents. You should really get help this is serious not something you can just deal with some other time. I think health is more important than career aspirations. Your life will be full of ups and downs anyway. When you're young it seems like a perfect future is awaiting you sometimes but that's not the case.

Mental health and physical health are the basis for any sustained success. You can destroy yourself and achieve great things in the short term but you will crash and burn sooner or later. Right now you're still young and have time so it's a great time to deal with the bulimia and the mental causes of it. It will make the rest of your life easier.

The acid from your stomach will not just burn your throat but also destroy your teeth over time.

You should get therapy and learn to take care of yourself and love yourself first and then your goals ambitions and outside expectations and pressures come after that. Because I get the feeling you're very focused on being what's expected of you.

I hope you can get help and wish you all the best for the future.

Smashingdoozy · Accepted Answer

Sounds like you live in the USA judging by the schooling system language, so your information about treatment is private and cannot be used against you. Your chances of getting a scholarship will not be hindered by getting help.

As for getting the help, I don't fully agree with how your parents are treating you. If you don't feel safe to tell them what's going on you can seek treatment on your own but it is difficult to maintain if your family isn't aware. So if you feel comfortable enough you should sit down with them and tell them what has been going on and that you are willing to get help but going to a treatment center is very much a last resort.

As for getting the treatment itself you can go to your GP and be recommended through them where to go and/or a treatment plan depending on what's available at your Drs office.

You can also go to the NEDA (National eating disorder association) website and register on there for a list of resources to help you in recovery.

If you have chrome browser you can look at any information you need in incognito mode so there is no trace in the history.

On_cloud_wine · Accepted Answer

They have places you can go to.. treatment centers. You’ll need to stay there for a while. Your eating disorder, if not resolved, will interfere with your studies tremendously. Take care of this now or else you’ll be long into adulthood still suffering. It’s a disease.. don’t be embarrassed or ashamed but you need a support group ASAP

MementoMori777 · Answer

you should get help or at the very least, eat properly, you are living a very unhealthy lifestyle and not only can lack of nutrition lead to extreme weight loss but also organ failure and instead of throwing everything up just count and track what you eat, but eat a healthy amount, vomit is food mixed eith stomach acid and stomach acid is... well acid and I don't know if you know but its possible for vomit to damage the vocal cords and im sure other areas of your digestive tract as well, if you can't fight off your anorexia then you should seek help.

abc3643 · Answer

In this picture is a woman I knew long ago. Here, she was probably 50ish not sure.
She's dead now; she died in 2020 at the age of 56. Her problems began around senior year of high school. She was a beautiful girl when we were kids but she must've been insecure about it. It's a waste (pardon the pun) what happened to her.

Do we have to read your obituary in the next few years?

Sexiestjohnson · Answer

Sweetheart, you are not the first to have this hurdle. Secondly, I suggest you go on YouTube, especially Christian YouTubers, and watch how they successfully overcame this hurdle. I said Christian because they are so honest about the whole experience and genuine about how the won.

Jay3344 · Answer

See a nutritionist or a doctor and follow the guidelines they give you as best you can. Hurting yourself by denying your body all the things it needs is no way to live. If it’s for looks or vanity then try and address those issues but treat the symptoms first as best you can. Throwing up will destroy your throat your teeth, your stomach - your whole body. Just start slow and try and get help.

kylee2437 · Answer

Yeah you should get help because you can die from this. I had anorexia in my teens up until 20 years old and I have permanent issues from the eating disorder.

ImalwaysrightOK · Answer

You can literally go to any doctor and ask for help. Your parents are trying to save your life. If you don't get help, you'll die. Maybe you can't trust your parents, but you should trust someone and ask for help.

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