Am I just lazy or is ADHD and burnout hurting my job performance?

[smahala1991]

I am often told my work is not good enough even though I really try and want to be motivated. I am a custodian at a high school for context. Last year when I first started I caught on quickly. However over this school year, I feel like I am slowly losing interest. I was homeless from June til just a couple weeks ago. I was also diagnosed as ADHD since I was 3 years old, could my ADHD be factoring? Am I just lazy? Is it burnout? Why do I feel like I really want to try but can't get motivated? Is it my fault?

Updates

2 mo

4 people have been fired in the past month at my cleaning company out of like 20 as well

[Crimsyjo]

Sounds ti me like you lack anything in life that's giving you a feeling of purpose or passion. I don't mean you need to find your dream job. Although you could think about changing? My mum always moved jobs like after about 3 years. She said she outgrew them and once she knew the job well she lost interest. She may have been autistic but back in her day that wasn't a thing.

But depression and other feelings of ugh.. it's like understandable if your lacking something. I don't want to just work, eat, sleep grind all day everyday. For me I find have sex and connection lifts me and then all the other things in life are more doable.

[jennifer_bloom]

I will tell you, if your boss yells at you, or judges you, it does not mean you are bad at your job. Bosses are programmed to boost job performance by constantly giving you negative remarks, and they will look for excuses to criticize you when no valid reason exists. The way to function is to detach emotionally from drama when it happens. You train yourself to behave at purely a mechanical level, rather than a receptive emotional level. That way, negative social spirals do not derail your mood or diminish your overall internal composure at work.

[msc545]

Are you basically not doing a good enough job cleaning up things?

[smahala1991]

Pretty much

[msc545]

Well, then I don't blame them for complaining. I would complain, too, if you did a sloppy job of cleaning up. It's easy enough to hire somebody and pay them the same money and get them to do a decent job. I think you'd better start cleaning up, or you're going to lose your job. It's not like clean up requires any job training of any sort; it just requires you to do what you're paid to do. There is a reason this is called "unskilled labor".

[NathanDavis]

all of that... and some more too

[smahala1991]

Such as?

[NathanDavis]

lack of a few things... like responsibility

there's depression... denial, and pretty much all of the things you've been mentioned in the last five years I've been on those site

but more than anything, it is a serious lack of responsibility you rely on others to sub-exist, rather than taking care of yourself

people around have enabled you just enough, to keep you in that vicious cycle and now you just doing it to yourself because that's all you know now

[In_Trance]

You're lazy