It's like a switch.
I'm all happy, smiley and talkative when I'm around family.
Then when I'm alone.. I'm empty. Numb. Without feeling. I'm a shadow on the wall. I'm the darkness that surrounds the Stars. I'm at a state of nothingness.
Alone I am nothing. Alone I am no one. All feelings exist outside of my body. All around me.
I stare into the dark abyss. Not longing. Not anything.
Nothing. It's like a swirl of darkness found its way into me. And nothing snaps me out of it.
Slowly poisoning myself to death with cigarettes.
I can't stop listening to Across the Universe either.
Nothing's gonna change my world.