What is something you fear but don't like to admit?

[MeiXinran]

oh

“Didn't even hit you that hard”

I kind of feel everyone once told that lie in the midst of panic because of fear of their patents reaction

I know I did multiple times

[Anonymous]

it was harsh to see that image.. it's horrible actually.

Well there was no blood in mine but I remember I was mad with my sister I can't remember why but I went and got a hard cover book and opened it so the hard part was sticking up and while she was sleeping I placed it under her back and then moved her back so she could be uncomfortable.. she didn't wake up.. so it made me more mad but I felt bad so I went to take off the book from there, all mad but I took it off because I felt sad about it... THEN later the next day she was kneeling drawing some stuff and I went to punch her in her butt a lot of times and laughed, and she said owwwww and cried and fell to the floor.. I ran fast to her and Said are you okay? and she kept crying

I was so scared
I said please stop I'll be your slave the entire day
and she just kept crying
I hugged her and tried to pick her up and take her to the bed
she was just like owww owww and said she couldn't walk

I felt so sad and worried

I asked her if she needed juice she just kept crying
I ran to bring her juice
I just wanted her to be okay and I was mad that she made me mad and didn't care that I was mad, she would not fight me back so it only angered me more.

this is where I learned that people (not all of course but many) get more angry when there is no reaction from the person you are angry with.. and it is sad to realize now that the people who don't react are probably doing it to avoid a bigger problem or a fight to escalate, but in doing this the mad person gets angrier and can cause more damage, as stupid as it sounds it's human behaviors that I see not just in my situation but in many others where it's adults who take drastic measures to even torturing and killing.

Anyhow I drifted off the initial subject a bit, but just analyzing it all
I was scared to admit that I hurt her bad on purpose because she was not reacting to me and when I hurt her I was scared that she was actually hurt and that I would be punished but really I was more scared that she was actually hurt more than if my parents would see.

I was really mean as a little girl but I think that person I was made me the person I am now and I became good. I see some people still don't understand how the brain works, and feel I learned a lot from how I was back then.

I feel bad harming someone that does not deserve to be harmed. I feel bad for anyone being harmed that doesn't deserve it.

[Opinion Owner]

I drifted so much off the initial question and forgot to address it lol
Well I knew I hit her hard but I said "I didn't hit you so hard" but I continued "or did I hit you so hard" "no I didn't" .. "did I?" .. I was trying to convince her and myself but at the same time wanting to know the truth which I already pretty much knew but I wanted her to tell me.. yet all she did was cry. I'm so mean. I hate my old me.

[MeiXinran]

Everyone's childhood is not perfect, so we can only remember when we were little, let's be better now

[Cherry234]

If I ever become pregnant, I worry about gaining too much weight and having trouble bouncing back.

[HighlyVolatile]

I usually don't mind it admitting but I am afraid of hurting other people by accident. I work as a software engineer but I could never work a mission-critical type of job where a bug I cause ends up getting someone else killed. If it's a bug that gets me killed, no problem, but if it's a bug that gets someone else killed, I become the most paranoid person on the team wanting to quadruple-check everything and still not satisfied enough to ship.

[HighlyVolatile]

* I usually don't mind [admitting it] [...]

[HighlyVolatile]

Another one for me is growing feeble or senile... not dying. I've overcome most of my fear of death being an adrenaline junkie. For a similar reason. I don't want to end up being a burden to other people. I'd rather die sooner if that has to happen.

[HighlyVolatile]

Another one for me is my cats dying. I didn't want cats in the first place but they are stray cats I had to rush to the vet (first got a hip fracture, second had feline stomatitis and reached a point of being unable to eat even a bite of food without yelping and running away) and then felt like I had to take care of them. I don't know why but I'm worried about how I'm going to handle them dying. I should be more worried about my wife dying; I'm pretty sure I love my wife way more than my cats. But I think it's because my cats are a bit sickly and one is very old and because their lifespan is shorter, I'm much more worried about them dying.

[HighlyVolatile]

Well, with my older cat, I think it's pretty much guaranteed that she's going to die in several years. With my wife, it's very unlikely that she'll die in several years.

[HighlyVolatile]

As for fear of things like death and injury to myself, I overcame most of it. I'm largely immune to social embarrassment, physical pain, and death. So the usual things like performing on stage or being clawed by wild animals or dying in an earthquake or being beaten to death aren't things I fear anymore. Anything related to danger to myself isn't something I fear anymore. I was in the Sendai during the Fukushima earthquake and I was laughing while people were screaming and crying. It's fun to me and I was only worried about my wife's safety and the safety of people around me but I don't see what the big deal is if we die. But I don't want people I care about to die.

[Agape93]

I'm terrified of something happening to my best friend.

[jamesgoldman]

Being flat fking broke

[Shy_Steve]

Being Single for the rest of my life.