Need help. I’m hating everything and anything?

[happyfoetus]

I am loosing interest in every human. Mostly it is negative experiences. I’m also not liking me for some reason. Every time I have an argument, I cry. Although I hate to cry in front of people.
I don’t like it when people ask me to be something that I’m not. My parents arguing with me when I express genuine concerns which include lack of space to open my car.

Random people asking when I would get married but the whole concept of marriage irks me from head to toe. My sister forcing me to marry in 2 years.

Ghe only good thing in life is my corporate job and my sick old pup. Apparently people are asking me to lock him up as he attracts housefly and shead due to his skin condition and belittle my corporate job.

I feel I need to find a new home but I’m not doing it since the pay is less and I’m planning to save as much as I can while saving on rent and gas. Apparently I pay for my food and all other needs and even contribute to household and bills.

[SueShe]

I believe that you are having a start of a depressive state where everything and everyone is going on your nerves and I am not sure that asking your question here on GaG is the right place to vent because what you will achieve is to motivate trolls and spammers to make fun of you.

What you need is help from a specialist that can go over the steps to stop this downward spiral you find yourself in and the more negative your thoughts about life, people and the world, the more you fall into that spiral. It is extremely difficult to get out of it without professional help.

I am no doctor but I can imagine that you must be going through hell.

I suggest you make a list where where you list everything that you dislike about people and besides every point, you give a solution to improve your perception. Make sure that your goal is achievable. Go one point after the other and take it slow. If you want to correct everything at once, the task is daunting and you will fail.

Good luck.

[MicahRaine]

We've all been there 😞

Life can be really hard and unfair. But I've learner it always gets better. 4-19 I was in and out of deep depression and I never thought it would get better, but now it has gotten better.

If you ever need someone to talk to, there are people out there who want to talk. Just remember, don't make permanent decisions for temporary problems.

[MicahRaine]

Thanks for the mho :)

[Sharkstealth]

Your sister forcing you to marry in 2 years? How is that possible?

[gorydetails]

IT sounds like you're a miserable person. Get some therapy.

[Kelly6]

totally depression, I can tell because I have depression too

[elaphe]

How can your sister "force" you to get married?

[Bobby88t]

You are only 20 years old and you should enjoy life. Just dont bother you others.