First of all: The title may sound like this, but this is not about S/M or any kinky stuff at all.
I'm with my girlfriend (now wife) for over 12 years now. I remember our first weeks when every touch was a sensation. We enjoyed every bit of another. However, she was my first (and is still my only) girl. I was new to all this, while she had boyfriends before. Maybe that's why she started to win little power games early. I was just a little more eager to end up in bed than she was.
After about a year I moved away. I thought about breaking up because I could not take a long-distance relationship. That distance was not too big, though, about 50 miles. Maybe I was just scared of getting serious. Anyway, I moved away for college but we stayed together. After about half a year she moved in with me in the new city (she managed to go to a college that was not too far away). We shared 1 room, 18 square meters. That was intense. She started to win "power games" again. We moved to a slightly bigger flat that had 2 rooms. Still I did not indulge in that as I did before. I played video games, drank alcohol, stayed up very late, I did what I wanted to, and that was anything but studying. With time our ways seemed to part...
After 6 years of relationship she left me. Fortunately, she missed me and came back 2 days later. I don't know why she missed me, actually. I was not a good boyfriend. But I missed her, too. I cried. Maybe she just needed to see me care.
Another year went by and I tried to fix me. Finally do exams. I had a hard time. I was depressive, I needed pills. But more than that, I needed my girlfriend. I remembered the power games. I kinda offered to lose them on purpose. I reminded her how good it was when she was in control. I gave her vouchers that put her in control for certain periods of time. I had to do just everything she said. That worked surprisingly well.
About another year later we moved to another flat, 3 rooms now, wow. I was about to finish my exams. I was obliged to obey her for several months now... until I did the exams. It was her birthday. She said she does not want it to end. She said I'd certainly leave her when I recognize how screwed she was. That was not true, of course. However, she knew I digged being under her control. So she offered me something I wished for since the beginning: we could make it permanent. I'd have to do whatever she wanted---forever!
That was great. Of course I agreed. However, I grew a custom to it. And of course there were things I still could just do. Don't tell her stuff, by stuff I wanted no matter whether she wanted it, too. We married. I earned more money. But I still needed her. I do weird things. I lie. I wanted her to keep control of that.
We have a new arrangement now. It's not totally different, just more. I'm not just obliged to obey. Well, I vowed eternal and uncondtional obedience. But I also begged her to take me as her property. As such I'm no longer allowed to do anything on my own. I only do what she had explicitly allowed. Just to not risk any ambiguity, this includes everything, even breathing.
My body is hers. She has complete control over it. She can do anything with it or order me to do anything. Nor will I resist her, neither will I disobey.
All my possession became her property alone. Every new stuff I will ever get will instantly become her property alone.
I sweared it to her and signed it. I never felt any more relieved. I know I can make her happy and I will. She wants to be in control (well maybe not that much but she agrees because it makes me happy), and she's sooo good in being in control.
I'm a better person now. I'm honest and I'm truly satisfied. Sometimes she bosses me around quite good. And sometimes I not only have to take her shoes off, even in public, but, when we're in private, also kiss her feet afterwards. But that's fine. She's my goddess and I love to serve her.
I honestly think our marriage is invincible now. She says I'm her family, she could never stop loving me. For me it's the same. And I think it's because we found our positions.
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