It's been so long I've waited for the right guy to came by
I've reached 24 when I lost my virginity
One man came to my life and I forget why I was waiting
He touched my soul that is the reason I stopped thinking of it anymore.
I don't care if he isn't the right guy for me as long as I shared my love for him.
We make love. I made him the happiest man among all
Not knowing that the loved we had was fainting,
because of negligence to care better of him than myself.
Months pass, we become more comfortable.
He knew me so well, I wanted to make him smile most of his days.
Our love fainted until the day, he grew of his insecurities
He started to become jealous, He loses his trust for me.
Every day I started to cry. I cried so deeply in my soul.
Asking Why did I ever loved a guy, who doesn't see my soul.
We got on our first heavy fight. One week of silence.
A silence that we stopped to talk.
He came for me to settle our problem.
But he came not to fix our love and gave me a bitter heart.
He hurt me, He showed in front of me.
While I read his message for someone
"If my girlfriend break up with me, I will knock on your door"
I thought I was gonna die of paint reading those line.
Asking why did our love faint, and what am I missing for the love I gave him.
Two weeks passed,
I've left all the tears with me and went home in pain
Searching for the peace I was looking of.
We survived that fight and still stay together for a month after.
Then one more challenge came again and makes me wonder
if I will ever fight for love again.
One day I'd realize, Why I never received a callback?
Morning, afternoon and evening I called to say "I love him"
but with that, he never tried to call me back
So I stop calling him and neither talk to him
One week has passed, He never did anything to fix that silence
We got into another week of silence.
And there I decided to let our relationship go.
I ask myself, Did I lack giving my love?
or it is just that my love was not worthy.
I reached him again to say goodbye.
He knows he won't ever see me again.
We confessed to each other and cried.
I told him, "I'm tired of crying every day,
thinking if he'll ever love me the same"
I've kneeled down in front of him crying to let me go for my freedom
I did it. That's the risk that I take because I did it for love
I never imagine kneeling down in front of a guy because of his immaturity.
He tried to tell me he will take his life away.
That night, my soul was crying too much, but he still didn't see my pain.
He cares more about his fear of letting me go but he never cared if I'm dying of pain
giving my freedom to him
I'm crying most of my days of pain because I Love him
We broke up, and I've won the freedom I'm asking.
We still loved each other but it will never be the same again.
I risk to love someone and I almost die of pain
Now I warned you, Never risk on someone for love