I don't know what to believe..

[Betwyn]

The end is so close..

And yet..

I've lost the will to wait..

I feel adrift..

Cast aside..

Forgotten..

I haven't heard from you in days..

Not even a single text..

Have you changed your mind?

Forgotten me?

Tired of toying with me and my emotions?

I don't know what to believe...

I feel like a shadow of myself..

Hollow and fuzzy..

Insubstantial and worthless..

The spark fading in my eyes..

I think I'm starting to finally see..

I have no purpose..

No direction..

No... point.

I'm an anchor..

Ultimately..

I just drag people down..

Hold them back..

Everyone leaves in the end..

I'm left with other broken toys..

Forgotten at the back..

Unwanted..

The apathy has been taking over more...

I've only really been feeling alive..

During those flashes of anger..

I'm tired all the time.

Too tired to struggle..

Too tired to mask..

To hide..

To front..

I don't even know if I believe.

I don't even feel like it matters..

I feel empty and defeated..

I feel...

Done...

[PT1911]

Wonderfully said and written, solidarity girl, I've been there before.

Beautiful picture as well.

But then I always remember to be like batman

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[xXiTacoXx]

*Sips on some tea.* Mkay, good for you, you're depressed now do something about it.

[PeterPan11]

Thank you! Someone here with wisdom!

[Betwyn]

I write mainly for me. It's how I get things out of my head.

I can't help that someone at GaG decided to promote this.

[xXiTacoXx]

You could have always written it in a notebook so it's more private. Plus, if it's solely for you, why share it on here?

[Betwyn]

I said mainly, not solely. Other people, even here, take solace in knowing they aren't alone with certain thoughts and feelings, or in knowing, others have it worse.

Plus for me, whether anyone else reads it or not, posting it, has always made it more real to me. I post on my FB as well. On the old version of this site, I had pages upon pages of writings.

[xXiTacoXx]

Well if you want to post things for people to see you should make a blog. Try using Weebly for it. o3o

[Betwyn]

Blogs come with expectations.

[xXiTacoXx]

Online diary then?

[Betwyn]

meh.. I do what I do, people can read, or not, as fits them.

[xXiTacoXx]

Alrighty. o3o

[hypno-trip]

I like the last line a lot. "I feel done" It carries a lot of meaning if translated into Chinese too I think.

[Betwyn]

interesting

[hypno-trip]

yeah in Chinese it kind of means "I'm done for" but whatever not relevant to your poem.

[MrOracle]

While I hope these feelings are resolved or resolve themselves soon, I'm always impressed with the power and excellence of your writing. You know how to say so much with so few words...

[Betwyn]

Thank you

[Levin]

Thank you. Glad it's not just me that feels this way.

[YourFutureEx]

I don't know how people afford to get depressed, this is not the end until there no way left in the life.

[Betwyn]

I don't consider myself depressed.

[YourFutureEx]

Then what were your feeling when you were writing this, basically?

[Betwyn]

Sad, lost, lonely.

Depression.. is something much deeper.. something you can't just, step out of. Something that doesn't come and go.

[YourFutureEx]

Well, you got way more literary knowledge than me. For me, being 'Sad, lost, lonely' is not less than being depressed. But I think I should trust you.

[RationalMale]

stop drinking. :p
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[Betwyn]

So, I'm more pro-dog and anti-cat.. but that made me laugh

[RationalMale]

good, now ditch the zombie look. you're gonna give some kid nightmares :p

[Betwyn]

This is not a zombie look lol

I have a much better zombie game then most lol

[kheserthorpe]

I don't think you hold people back. Reading this it seems more like you launch them.

[Betwyn]

Launch them?

[kheserthorpe]

Like you give them what they need to move forward. The opposite of holding them back.

[DanteSparda]

I'm feeling the same right now actually :(

[Betwyn]

:( *hugz*

[Michael_Rc46]

Hey great poem :) did you write it?

[Betwyn]

I did.

[BangBadBxtches]

Lips need some chapstick

[Betwyn]

meh.. we can't all be perfect.

[baarkmann]

nice poem, very good descriptive choice of words.

[Krushhbrownies]

That deeep man.. Nice poem!

[Betwyn]

thanks

[Student_31]

emotional. :( :(

[Anonymous]

You smell good.

[Betwyn]

thank you

[Opinion Owner]

Your welcome.