This is going to be a bit long, sorry. Before you attack me, I know cheating isn't right, but who ever really honestly always does the right thing? But here is why I asked. She was perfect in the beginning. She cooked, cleaned, dressed better, didn't belch like a man, kept her appearance nice. Now (2 years later) she dresses in sweats, belches loud af, clingy, depressing, needy, and manipulative (knowingly or unknowingly), oh and fucking lazy. She is annoying. The thing is I don't know if I'm still in love with her or not. I know I love her. The sex is nearly nonexistent. Mainly because when I'm ready (which is nearly always) She isn't ready. When I give up on sex, she wants it. I think I'm losing my attraction to her. I'm scared of that. I was reading somewhere it said cheating might bring the spark back. I'm not a bad person and I don't want to hurt her. I'm basically desperate at this point. I want it to work but a girl can only take so much. Please help! Or at least tell me how to curve the urge to cheat (self pleasure doesn't work anymore). I've already tried talking to her about things in a nice manner and she just gets defensive and cries. I ask her if I've done something to make her change, she says I'm fine. We argue all the time... I just don't know but I do know that I crave that extra feminine, sexy woman. Not a stud/butch like myself that's not what the hell I signed up for.
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I've suggested taking a break and giving time to breathe and get things together. Breaking up isn't even an option at this point as she has informed me on more than one occasion that she will kill herself if I leave. I'd be truly devastated if she hurt herself, especially because of me.
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