Girls, Should I cheat on my girlfriend (Lesbian relationship)?

[Anonymous]

This is going to be a bit long, sorry. Before you attack me, I know cheating isn't right, but who ever really honestly always does the right thing? But here is why I asked. She was perfect in the beginning. She cooked, cleaned, dressed better, didn't belch like a man, kept her appearance nice. Now (2 years later) she dresses in sweats, belches loud af, clingy, depressing, needy, and manipulative (knowingly or unknowingly), oh and fucking lazy. She is annoying. The thing is I don't know if I'm still in love with her or not. I know I love her. The sex is nearly nonexistent. Mainly because when I'm ready (which is nearly always) She isn't ready. When I give up on sex, she wants it. I think I'm losing my attraction to her. I'm scared of that. I was reading somewhere it said cheating might bring the spark back. I'm not a bad person and I don't want to hurt her. I'm basically desperate at this point. I want it to work but a girl can only take so much. Please help! Or at least tell me how to curve the urge to cheat (self pleasure doesn't work anymore). I've already tried talking to her about things in a nice manner and she just gets defensive and cries. I ask her if I've done something to make her change, she says I'm fine. We argue all the time... I just don't know but I do know that I crave that extra feminine, sexy woman. Not a stud/butch like myself that's not what the hell I signed up for.

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I've suggested taking a break and giving time to breathe and get things together. Breaking up isn't even an option at this point as she has informed me on more than one occasion that she will kill herself if I leave. I'd be truly devastated if she hurt herself, especially because of me.

[Anonymous]

Don't cheat! If you really have fallen out of love with her, break up with her! "Cheating leaves a scar that will never fade, but a broken heart can be easily mended"

[Asker]

That's the thing, I don't know if I'm still in love or not.

[AzureGirl]

Whatever you read is stupid. Just break up with her, maybe time apart will do you good. Cheating will most likely just destroy it all.

[Asker]

I've suggested a break. She says she doesn't want that. But she won't fix these problems. I know if I leave she will kill herself. She has told me that... Its like I'm in a lose/lose situation either way. I'd be devastated if she hurt herself.

[AzureGirl]

Then break up with her. Pulling the suicide card is just a sad tactic and a major red flag. I suggest when you do you call someone to be with her so she doesn't attempt to self destruct.

[Asker]

There is no one to be with her. She doesn't really have any friends, her family is crappy and doesn't really care about her. We now live somewhere where she knows no one (my hometown). She owns a gun and I've seen her about to kill herself because we were homeless at one time and things got extra rough. She did cock it and put it to her head, I came back just I time to catch her before she pulled the trigger. So there is no doubt she will do it.

[AzureGirl]

Take the gun then and call the police to tell them she may attempt to kill herself

[Asker]

I could try that. Never thought about that and maybe she could get the help she needs too...

[Asker]

Thank you.

[AzureGirl]

You're welcome, I wish you luck.

[alicewhite]

is this a question? BREAK UP WITH HER!!!

[Ava23]

What happened? How's everything now?