My long distance relationship is killing me?

hi so I've been in this long distance relationship with my boyfriend and i love him to death but not seeing him is killing me every day i wake up depressed i dont eat and i take my sadness out on other people around me, my boyfriend lives 2 hours away from me and i dont understand why he can't come to see me like at least once a week, im 16 so its hard for me to travel long distance places without my parents knowing but he's 19 its more easier for him and as far as i know he doesn't work doesn't go university or anything, when i ask him what he's up to he always replies he's chilling with his mates and by chilling he means he's getting high smoking weed like he has time to do all that but can't come see me. once he even accused me of cheating on him and i was literally crying on the phone because i would never cheat on anyone, a lot of guys show interest in me but if im in a relationship i won't even look at another guy. he comes home at 4am like every day doing god knows what and I've never doubted him in my life, in a day we talk like twice he tells me he loves me but if he really did he would make effort to come see me and seems like he doesn't trust me at all but every time i try to leave him he literally makes it impossible and tells me he's going to die if i leave him, i honestly dont know what to do im so paronoid please help me
My long distance relationship is killing me?
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