Hello again,
Covid has been rough. I am chirstian and it pains me to say this but my father passed away when I was in HS. And my mother had always been abusive including cheating on him while he was deployed and neglecting me around and after his death.
So I suppose I am in purgatory now. I am now 25 and covid has made things so much harder. I've done things I regret. I am learning to take control of my life again and the horrors of the real world especially as the unrest was starting as I graduated college after putting myself through school, with lots of Financial aid and a scholarship.
Even with all of those things being a young vibrant woman I had always been abused and even sexually harassed by my bosses and lied on by co workers and not supported by my family. I was confident in my ability to work as I built more skills at menial jobs but the unrest, created a toxic environment and then I was introduced to hell on earth which is cheap living and where older men and women essentially torture young women until they are shells. It's like thugs but in a spiritual sense where they find ways to harm you without touching you and tehere has been a influx in this.
Anyway, I am embarassed I went to a college with many out of state students and who work at good companies now and have parents to support them while I was a scholarship kid. I am a strong person just very shy but it comes off as offensive as a pretty girl or a nice woman. And people continiously who had less of a sad past try to prove their strength by trying to beat me up consistently until it became a problem at work and I was consistently ganged up on for doing my work, correctly.
Its easy to move in with a man when you are poor and have rent paid. But it seems like many of them expect sex. And I'm christian. It breaks my heart that it seems like I have to sacrifice that. My mother also abused me and turned me away as she is mentally ill.
Covid has been rough. I am chirstian and it pains me to say this but my father passed away when I was in HS. And my mother had always been abusive including cheating on him while he was deployed and neglecting me around and after his death.
So I suppose I am in purgatory now. I am now 25 and covid has made things so much harder. I've done things I regret. I am learning to take control of my life again and the horrors of the real world especially as the unrest was starting as I graduated college after putting myself through school, with lots of Financial aid and a scholarship.
Even with all of those things being a young vibrant woman I had always been abused and even sexually harassed by my bosses and lied on by co workers and not supported by my family. I was confident in my ability to work as I built more skills at menial jobs but the unrest, created a toxic environment and then I was introduced to hell on earth which is cheap living and where older men and women essentially torture young women until they are shells. It's like thugs but in a spiritual sense where they find ways to harm you without touching you and tehere has been a influx in this.
Anyway, I am embarassed I went to a college with many out of state students and who work at good companies now and have parents to support them while I was a scholarship kid. I am a strong person just very shy but it comes off as offensive as a pretty girl or a nice woman. And people continiously who had less of a sad past try to prove their strength by trying to beat me up consistently until it became a problem at work and I was consistently ganged up on for doing my work, correctly.
Its easy to move in with a man when you are poor and have rent paid. But it seems like many of them expect sex. And I'm christian. It breaks my heart that it seems like I have to sacrifice that. My mother also abused me and turned me away as she is mentally ill.
