I spend a lot of time worrying and thinking about the past and the people I used to be friends with. I was a people pleaser in my younger days I was obsessed with making lots of friends, being nice to everyone, being there for everyone... BUT I was never there for myself I portrayed a good life but in reality I had major problems and difficulties.
I have had many opportunities come my way and I have wasted them by worrying about what people think, even the people who were my friends at the time... thinking back now... they were TERRIBLE FRIENDS!!! so jealous, SO fake and NOT motivating!! They used to laugh at my goals and dreams when I told them what I wanted to achieve... I was humiliated many times when I failed to achieve something by my so called friends.
LONG story short... I was a pathetic immature girl growing up in my early 20s didn't know what the hell I wanted out my life, i put my friends first over my own feelings and I thought everyone was all rainbows and sunshines!!!
I HATE HATE HATE how this past friends know so much about me know my weaknesses, now my ups and downs, I HATE HATE HATE how i vented to these people!!!
It has been a good couple of years now and I have CUT all these people out my life- BLOCKED their asses in every form of contact.
The world is currently my oyster I have many good things coming my way... I am now focused on my self and my own goals more than I have ever been!!! HOWEVER why do I still think and worry about the past and the people that knew me... I am becoming a new person but the old me and the old life haunts me, I feel like I can't show the f--- up and LIVE and GRIND and so was the hell I wanna do, cause I worry that these people know me and know that I wasn't really like that
I have learned SOOOO much and I just wanna be confident with the new me I am mature, strong, wiser, more knowledgable... HOW THE HELL DO I MOVE THE HELL ON OFFICIALLY FROM THE FAKES AND LOSERS I USED TO ASSOCIATE MYSLEF WITH? HELP
I have had many opportunities come my way and I have wasted them by worrying about what people think, even the people who were my friends at the time... thinking back now... they were TERRIBLE FRIENDS!!! so jealous, SO fake and NOT motivating!! They used to laugh at my goals and dreams when I told them what I wanted to achieve... I was humiliated many times when I failed to achieve something by my so called friends.
LONG story short... I was a pathetic immature girl growing up in my early 20s didn't know what the hell I wanted out my life, i put my friends first over my own feelings and I thought everyone was all rainbows and sunshines!!!
I HATE HATE HATE how this past friends know so much about me know my weaknesses, now my ups and downs, I HATE HATE HATE how i vented to these people!!!
It has been a good couple of years now and I have CUT all these people out my life- BLOCKED their asses in every form of contact.
The world is currently my oyster I have many good things coming my way... I am now focused on my self and my own goals more than I have ever been!!! HOWEVER why do I still think and worry about the past and the people that knew me... I am becoming a new person but the old me and the old life haunts me, I feel like I can't show the f--- up and LIVE and GRIND and so was the hell I wanna do, cause I worry that these people know me and know that I wasn't really like that
I have learned SOOOO much and I just wanna be confident with the new me I am mature, strong, wiser, more knowledgable... HOW THE HELL DO I MOVE THE HELL ON OFFICIALLY FROM THE FAKES AND LOSERS I USED TO ASSOCIATE MYSLEF WITH? HELP
