Okay, so I got this OCD issue. Retroactive jealousy. Most people don't care about the fact you slept with others in the past (Except for total amount of people, whether it's right or wrong). They put it out of their head because the past is in the past. But with this OCD issue, you constantly obsess over the fact that other people had that experience and pleased the person you like and you can't stop thinking about it, and it torments you. It's not an easy thing to talk about. Most people misunderstand it as slut shaming, or point out you've slept with others too (Which is true, so if she'd have the same issue I'd understand, I'm not a hypocrite). A lot of people who don't understand say "If you truly like her you wouldn't care". But the thing is, that's why it hurts. It doesn't matter if she has one other person she slept with, or a 1000, or if they performed well or were terrible, the fact they even had that experience kills me. It keeps me out of relationships. Talking to a girl about if often leads her to thinking she's being slut shamed, and even if she knows she isn't, she can't unsleep with them. So what now?
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Pretty funny that the guy that said don't post on a public forum if you can't handle it blocked me.
