I never wanted to be this way. I never asked to be this way. It is mind blowing that I ended up this way.
When you think of people who have their first loves or first relationship, high school or even middle school comes to mind. Growing up, I have always dreamed of having a girlfriend, a wife, and a family of my own. Sadly, it never really happened for me.
I am turning 28 in September and I never had a real girlfriend. My entire life, I have watched peers form serious relationships, get engaged, get married, and have kids. I have yet to have my first real relationship, and I have every right to be frustrated and even angry, because I have been single my whole life and not by choice. I am involuntarily celibate.
I seek a woman with the same inexperience as me. I want us to be each other's first loves. It is only fair to desire that seeing I am inexperienced myself.
I am growing more and more depressed and bitter. I am long overdue and tired of this. I don't know how much longer I can take of this.
I am getting my life together. I am making $70k a year, which is very decent money considering my age. My salary is expected to grow overtime, and it already has.
