Does this make me a piece of shit for wanting him to think about me while he’s with his girlfriend?

So basically we slept together/spent the night together, cuddled and fell asleep in each others arms and now whenever he’s with his girlfriend I want him to think about me, whenever he goes and fucks her I want him to think about me. Am I shitty for feeling like this?
(I do not want a relationship with the man but I feel selfish for wanting him all to myself without a label)
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Yes before anyone asks, he has been cheating on her with me and he plans on staying with her and that’s totally fine but we both want to continue to have sex with each other on the down low
Does this make me a piece of shit for wanting him to think about me while he’s with his girlfriend?
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