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I am 28 M, seeing her for 10 years, afraid to commit to her 26 F but at the same time scared to loose. Is it just an ego game or commitment phobia?

used to love her long back, she rejected me every single day for a year. I was heartbroken and went to university.

There I met another girl, who looked somewhat like her, made her girlfriend but she cheated in me. Thats when Girl A came back. She got dumped by her boyfriend, the guy who she rejected me for. She was super clingy. The complete opposite of the women I met. We decided to be hookups but I never wanted to use her for her body. Somewhere she is still a precious for me. As she grew more clingy, I said Im dating another girl. She left me. I told her so coz she wanted hookup and she went on dates with other guys. I never wanted anyone to have her body but me.

Times flew and we met. My friend sat between us and I got uncomfortable. So I moved the guy to different seats twice. But I never talked to her there.

Now I connected with her. She is all fun to be around. I text her all the time, I see her cold response, I take hours to reply. Somewhere deep she is all mine. Somewhere else I see myself not a commitment type. She called me but I got scared of her confrontation. I didn't pick the call. She says she would block. It made me tense and text. But once I saw double tick, I feel relieved.

Also she is my work colleague and seem to barely interact with me. She is super friendly with all but me. Dont even look at me.

I am 28 M, seeing her for 10 years, afraid to commit to her 26 F but at the same time scared to loose. Is it just an ego game or commitment phobia?
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