Questions: Relationships

Has someone ever been so in love or infatuated with you that they basically worship you, and/or have you ever been so in love or infatuated with someone else that you basically worshipped them? I'm not talking about religion. I'm talking about human beings.

So i met this girl online about 3 months ago and we instantly clicked. We started dating after few weeks of knowing each other. 1.5 month ago she fell sick and had a surgery. She has been hospitalized ever since. I wanted to visit her and even stay closer for some time so i could support her but she didn't want me to see her in such bad shape so i agreed with her. Our relationship is still going strong and I'm support her by being there whenever she needs to talk. She has been feeling down lately. I was wondering if i should surprise visit her. We have never met before so i was wondering if you guys can give your opinion on this idea.

I wanted to send her this, should I send it?
''I need to ask you something and I want you to be totally honest with me. It might be awkward with us after this but I have to know how you feel. I have kept this in for a while and its about time I was straight up and just confront you about it. I hope this doesn't ruin the relationship we already have, and I just need to know and I can't see any other way to get over this just doesn't seem fair on me if I don't get an answer. I want to tell me truthfully, no matter what it is. I just want your honest answer... can a fish drown?''

We recently had "that conversation", you know, the one about our past sexual adventures and what not. For a guy, mine is pretty normal. When she opened up to me though, I couldn't help but feel grossed out. She's had over 20 partners, most being one night stands with guys she didn't know too well or barely knew at all. I think of this as a red flag, should I?

I'm a traditional guy though, and I feel that my future wife has to be "pure" and feel special to me. Giving herself to 20 plus guys before me sacrifices that. I'm not into slut-shaming but I just wouldn't wanna marry or get committed to a girl that's slept around - it's seen as a red flag at least by most men.

Is over 20 guys normal for girls though? I always assumed girls didn't sleep around much and were quite picky/conservative with who they slept with - I guess I was wrong? Like if it's normal that's a bit weird for me as I didn't think over 10 partners was common for girls.

Anyways what should I do? Most guys don't wanna date "sluts" or promiscuous girls, ] so that must be for a good reason right?

*Also we've been together for 8 months, so not much will be lost*

I've been with my girlfriend for about 3-4 months by now. She's the first girlfriend I've ever had, and I absolutely love her. She's rather tomboyish, having interest in gender-neutral or slighty masculine activities, like sports, video games, action shows/movies, reading, etc. She's also very sweet, and gentle, yet firm and a bit sarcastic. And as a side-thing, she's absolutely beautiful. Her personality is why I truly like her, but her good looks are hard to resist.

Either ways, I really like her, and really respect her, and want the best for her possible. I've never had much personal experience with girls, and I am sort of a slave to my hormones, always wanting to look at the "stuff" (boobs, butt, legs), and my face turns redder the more I try to resist. I respect women a lot, but I literally can't help myself.

And a few days back, she said she really wants to go to the beach with me. We live in Florida, so the beaches here are absolutely beautiful.

But the thing is, I don't want to see my girlfriend as an object. And she's not gonna wear a "modest" swimsuit, either. She has several photos on her social media of her and her friends hanging out at the pool and beach together in bikinis, which is basically a waterproof bra and panty.

And she IS gonna be touchy. In her photos she's hugging her female friends in bikini. And while around me, she always hugs and kisses me. Her bare skin against mine isn't gonna make me less nervous.

Heck, just merely when she wore shorts to Universal Studios, I could barely help myself from just seeing her bare legs. She was like, "Is something wrong, sweetie? You look kind of uneasy, and you're turning really red! Want me to get some help for you?" And I was like, "No, don't worry about it, baby, it's just really hot, since this is Florida, after all!"

So should I go with her? I haven't agreed on whether I should go or not, so I can still say yes or no.

How do you perceive your kissing talents to be on a scale from 1-10, with 1 being terrible to 10 being amazing. The interesting part then is how does this self-rating compare to the kiss recipient's perception of that interaction?