What is life trying to say to me or is my subconscious watching videos without me knowing?

[Sour-rose]

So I haven't visited church in years due to I just never wanted to go back due to I was forced to. I've thought about going back when I moved out because at least I'll be going on my own terms. But after one night of falling asleep to kitboga, him doing his hour long videos, I noticed... I watched a christian video. And supposedly subscribed to said channel? No one uses my phone but me but I've noticed that I've had videos watched completely in my history. But i have not even a slight memory file of watching said video.

Is life trying to tell me something or am I actually starting to get old and crazy? I don't know, but i can't imagine that god is trying to tell me something by putting videos in my history I didn't click on just because coincidence.

[Guy13]

There are those who are not saved but are foreknown and called unto God. They are reborn or regenerated anew (where one repents from Sin and is saved). And simultaneously justified (adopted unto Christ Jesus and sons' and daughters' of God). You probably are somewhere in this process.

Sanctification is the grooming of one who is saved where blessing comes in the form of obvious Blessing and Curse/Trials come as seemingly undeserved but are the Love of God grooming you into a Daughter of God. The trials are also Blessing.

In and through Christ Jesus, at death, as we all pay taxes and die, one will be Glorified in Soul, Mind, and Body as is God... and walk with Him and talk with Him in a returned Eden (Adam/Eve) at Jesus' second coming as Lion of Judah rather than first coming as Lamb of God.

UNDERSTANDING the wholeness of God : www.biblestudytools.com

(Search window: Attributes) and get to know the God who is calling you. You can also put individual attributes in Search: Mercy Grace etc... Start there. Once you get His personality from scriptural references provided... begin vibing or quietly meditating upon His Nature with Him... just Be with your Creator, God.

THEN some 3 months later (Search window Regeneration, Justification, Sanctification, and Glorification) and digest scriptural references.-THIS will display the Personality of God through those attributes that you are vibing with.

He is seeking you as you are obviously foreknown and now at the crossroads of an Adulthood of Blessing or Curse.-In Old Testament, "Obey and be Blessed;Disobey and be Cursed"(Choose Me and be Blessed; Disobey as in knowingly reject or ignore Me and be Cursed).

You Choose even when you choose not the thing before you. You can choose not or ignore God in this moment right here and you have made a Choice... this determining NOT to grasp the thing before you is Choice... you know right/wrong... It is on YOU now. Understand Instruction and when God is working through another on your behalf.

Blessings !!

[SnowedIn]

You're neither old nor crazy. And, not sure life is trying to tell you something. But your mind may be.

Maybe, possibly, this is you telling you that it's time to go back. Not go back as in blindly embrace and accept everything, but to go back on your terms. Walk through the doors with your eyes and your mind and your questions.

Or not.

But you're not old or crazy.

[SnowedIn]

Thank you for MHO!

[Anonymous]

Yes. It makes me feel really naughty, I know it's wrong yet it makes it even hotter. When he comes home from work I tell my Christian husband how bad i was and of my sin and he punishes me by spanking my behind red raw. Of course this arouses him and he can't help buy have intercourse with me which lasts about a minute as he's very excited. Then we say the rosary together.

[Sour-rose]

Bish, wha

[TallAnon]

Lol, no, that's not life, that's the youtube algorithm 😂

[Xtendable]

Do you think you’re a more theological person now? Has the subconscious watching of these videos helped?

[Sour-rose]

I think more or less I am. These videos I have no memory of and they still appear as watched. So maybe my subconscious is doing something.

[Xtendable]

I’m just wondering if you have learned something from them, like scriptural applications in your life

[Sour-rose]

I have... for a few. o:

[Xtendable]

So, maybe its a good thing. It might pay to continue allowing your subconscious to access those videos

[Debbie14217]

sub is playing tricks on