Do you ever feel unusual or different?

[DaBiggestBird]

It’s a bit difficult to explain, since this morning after I, well I guess we could say did some Biblical research, I’ve been feeling weird in a way. Nothing bad, just it seems something changed. Like if you’re lightheaded but relaxed and it caused by any kind of health issue. Maybe I’m having another major update, it’s happened all my life and each time felt unique.

Looking inside myself, it looks cloudy, calming clouds. Kind of a pale light blue. Everything that was previously here is still here. The clouds and rings are new.

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This whole day itself felt different, mostly during the morning. It felt quite similar to when I went to a place called Collin’s Lake. It was like a dream, the atmosphere was completely shrouded in mystery but I knew it was completely safe. That’s basically how I felt today, just it was less mysterious feeling since I was at home. It’s almost like I wasn’t home though.

[NathanDavis]

I am...

[DaBiggestBird]

As in you aren’t like most? I was referring to how you feel normally, like you feel like you. I suppose self awareness of my own being drifted away a little bit.

[NathanDavis]

maybe... after some weird dreams, a bit of temporary detachment

[DaBiggestBird]

Ooo, how interesting. Would it burdensome to inform me about one or two?

[NathanDavis]

well, the first one was actually at the start of this year... and the kind of dream you can have as a nightmare, but you wake up in the middle of it, and you're sort of half-asleep... your mind awakens, but your body is not responding yet... also known as sleep paralysis

so I woke up, and I was semi-conscious, in my bed, in my room... but I was also, still dreaming, and I had these hallucinations, dreams and perceptions of reality all mixed and messed up

in the dream state, there was this sort of shadowy entity that was incredibly negative and overwhelming that kind of wanted to embrace me, and crush me... or become part of me, I guess and that wasn't fun at all, a very disturbing image to "see" and feel

and in reality, as I usually sleep on my side, I did feel a very upsetting pressure all over me, and moreso on my back, my head... and my shoulders/arms, and the urge to scream and to get away from that thing, but I could not move at all, and I could not scream either, because well... in that moment you're paralyzed

it lasted only a few seconds... but the sensation of detachment right after, and while trying to come to terms with fuck the what just happened and what was that, did last longer

that's sort of how I remember it...

[strateguy632]

good because each person is different