What's worse, finding out god never existed or realizing god always existed?

Let's say you're either close to death or already died. What would be worse:

- Finding out god never existed and your wasted time and years believing in it. You dedicated so much, only to find out atheists were right the whole time.

- Finding out god did existed afterall and you've spent all your time and years denying its existence. The believers were right the whole time.

Being close to dying or dead and finding out god never existed. I wasted time for nothing.
Being on my deathbed or dead and finding out god always existed.
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What's worse, finding out god never existed or realizing god always existed?
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