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Hi All,

I have been with my boyfriend for 8years ; we have been through everything together. Bought a house together a small business and he supported me through serious illness (I had cancer); but whenever I bring up the subject of getting married he shys away from the idea saying its not the right time or we are too old now whats the point (he's 51). Its important to me and i think we have been through enough together that I think we can get through anything. Part of me thinks he just doesn't want to spilt because he doesn't want to have to sell the house etc. I have asked him this and of course he says no. Is he waiting for someone better to come along? or is he just comfortable in our current situation? Should I leave?

I'm in a loving relationship. No friends unless you're sister counts and person you barely text counts. I have a part time job that gives me like 8 to 12 hours a week. No pets and in a two bedroom apartment.

My boyfriend loves doing his projects they take up all his time and I'm glad that he has something he loves to do. I do as well. I love video games, art, watching shows, listening to books and crocheting. But I never feel like I get enough attention from him. Even if we spend the whole weekend together and he doesn't do his projects. Like I get all of his attention.

But somehow I just feel like anytime I spend with him, isn't enough even if we spent the 24/7 together. I know I shouldn't feel this way. But I don't know how to not feel this way. I keep myself as busy as possible. But nothing is ever enough. How can I feel like it's enough?

I have tried to make friends but it's so hard to do and then I feel like all the friends I have ever had just leave me. Should we get a pet so I can focus on something else besides him? Or just deal with it? Or do something else that will make it feel like enough?

Please help. I cannot afford a therapist so I come to you guys.

I have a very big bill of 30k. I recently quit the school so I can get a full time job, but it takes to long. I want to attend school in September again. Till then I want to pay my bills because it makes me depressed. Working full time isn't enough. I can pay the half of my bills in 1 Year of working full time.

The only solution would be tantra massaging I know a place we're I made 30k in 6 months and is still good. I don't had sex with anyone.

The clue is that my boyfriend knows about my bill and he supports me mentally to get through this and even pay the vet bills. I'm very thankful because my pets are not at fault for my bills. He will get it back.

I'm very stressed out knowing that 10hours of work don't add up to the full amount and time I need to pay off the bills.

He told me he is okay with the massage but deep down I'm afraid he won't be able to comprehend it and eventually leave.

So what should I do..