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started seeing a guy became close friends with benefits for two months. his ex girlfriend (one he thought to marry) came back. told him to go for it, he did, we remained friends but then I left as a friend to make sure they wouldn't break up with me in picture. they broke up 6 month later he came back. we messed around eventually he asks me to date him to be his girlfriend I said no as he's rebounding and I don't wanna be that girl. we continue seeing eachother, we get close again. I ask for 6 month if he was sleeping with anyone else he said no. I had a feeling and addressed it he later confirmed he slept with 4 other women. we weren't labeled boyfriend and girlfriend however thought it was exclusive as I was with him. I said he ruined my chance to have a hot girl summer before we settled into a relationship. we are official noe but I wanted to break up because of having doubts if he maybe could get away with again cheated. we came up with agreement that this summer I can have hot girl summer and sleep with 4 people to make him pay for it and help me get over it. I have feelings for him and only want him but have this feeling he may cheat in our relationship. he said no because he wants to marry me someday to do this and we will be even and move forward from it. I said ok. however I'm not sure actually what to do?

I’ve been hanging out with a guy since late December, we have not been on any dates but we do have different schedules. He works day/night shifts and I work from 8-5. Some nights when he gets off work he will come to my house and see me for a few hours. he isn’t just getting some and leaving he Will usually stay for at least 3/4 hours which I think is nice because I know he is tired from work. The other day he was over and my friends was over as well and he sat and talked to them for a good hour even though he didn’t have to and I know he was tired.. but what confuses me is what I’m about to say. after my friends left he made the comment that if my roommate moves out that me and him should live together that it would be nice and I agreed.. but then a little while later we was play fighting and he said that we was friends with benefits and told me to fist bump him? I believe he could tell it hurt my feelings bc I asked him if he was serious and just kinda sat there I didn’t cry but I really wanted too. then when he went to leave to go home I asked him if he was serious about it bc I told him I can not do friends with benefits that I mentally can’t do it that it mentally drives me insane and he just gave me a big long kiss and told me his going to let me figure it out!!! I don’t know if he is kidding or what any of this means and today he snapped me but opened mine and left me on read. I will sometimes do this to him and he mentioned it the other day, not sure is that is why he is doing it or not :( 😒 pls help