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I feel like I have backslided badly. Of course, this most certainly isn't the first time. I have built myself up numerous times to be knocked down to my knees.

More concerning, this time I am engaged to be married.

I have a multitude of different mental illnesses and developmental disabilities. I have been hospitalized involuntarily countless times. Although I am socio-emotionally retarded, I am very knowledgeable, skilled, and talented in a wide array of career-oriented hard skills. From previous healthcare experience to having a strong software developer skillset, I feel I am capable of making a difference and being successful. At 30, I can say I have both saved lives and worked on projects for multi-billion dollar companies. That is not just a measly milestone.

As it stands today, I am broke, rely on the benevolence of others, live at home, and sit alone at the house in self-pity. My fiance hasn't moved in with me yet full time.

My doctor has referred me to a specialized medical facility due to being such a complicated case. I am awaiting a call.

I cannot really determine if I have just grown up to see everything's true colors or if everything just turned to shit (or a combination of both).

I remember the "good ol' days" in my youth when I could trust most adults. Teachers and school staff/administrators actually held a tight ship. I felt most adults back then took responsibility and accountability and made the right decisions.

As it stands today, I feel like I am surrounded by a bunch of careless and clueless idiots. No one wants to take accountability, and I am skeptical to place the safety of my child in anyone's hands. I feel like we have backslided and common sense for a lot of things has went out the window.