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I got in my first relationship weeks after I turned 18 and it was out of pity. I didn't really love or even felt sexual attraction to my first girlfriend.

she liked me however and at the time she recently got out of a very life threatening toxic relationship with an asshole who used to abuse her and assaulted her with every random household object he got his hands on. one night her family rescue her from his claws but unfortunately she got emotionally involved and when back to him days later.

he even returned with her that night she when back to him with a machete in his hands threatening her family that he was going to "chop her into piece" if they try to take her away from him again. lucky for her after that night the whole neighbor sided with her family and were able to rescue her from him and she never got emotionally evolved again. days later she found me and fell in love with me.

- therefore my good Gemini side felt bad for her and was telling me to get with her and show her what good man was.

- however my bad Gemini side in the other hand was tired of being an 18 year old incel so it was telling me "this is you best opportunity, why let it go to waste?"

till then it was the pity that I had for her that made me fall in love with her, but I never told her this and she probably knew either way. but I wonder if this would actually hurt a woman's ego, knowing that the man she's with is with her out of pity and not desire

I happen to take this matter personally because of what happened to me.

When I was 20, I met this 16 year old girl online on an adult dating app. We really hit it off, and we began conversing for a series of months. We both researched the age of consent in her state, and found that it was 16. I drove to meet her, and we had a date. Things got intense later, and we ended up having sex. It ended up only being a weekend fling because she didn't want to pursue a romantic relationship with me. I was heartbroken. We had a dispute weeks later, and she never wanted to speak to me again.

7 months later while at my college dorm, I made an idiotic decision to drive back to her state to apologize and win her heart again. I was met at the door by her father, who was unhappy to see me to say the least. I shook his hand and agreed to cut complete contact. As I went back to my hotel, the police knocked on my door and arrested me. Fast forwarding, I was sentenced to 3 years supervised probation. The collateral damages were just as bad if not worse, as I lost my EMT license and my career.

The reason why I bring this up is because if this were to happen to someone who was elite, had money, or had high influential status, they would have likely just received a slap on the wrist or not have been touched at all by the law.

Instead, an average everyday person, let alone a young 20/21 year old trying to pursue love at that time, had his entire reputation and livelihood destroyed.

These elitist bastards flew 14 year old girls on an island, passed them around as casual sex dolls, and they get away with it completely unscathed. It's sick.

Now that I am 31 and married, I look back in hindsight with regret and sadness I became so desperate. I was young and dumb. But I am even more angry at the devastation it caused for so many years when, meanwhile, elitists just continue to thrive and get away with high-profile crimes.

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I'll be honest, I love my motivation in starting a family over a decade ago.

but now the more time goes by the more proud and relieve I am that never started a family. I mean I still dont understand how is it that people still reproducing in the degenerate society we live in nowadays?

my anxiety, depression, Complex PTSD and all the other mental illness I have would of probably been far worst that what I am currently just knowing I have children that are being indoctrinated to rebel against their own sanity and biology.

knowing the fact that you can't protect them like a normal parent doesn't make anything easier.