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Most of my life, I've never thought i wanted kids cause I barely wanted friends. Looking at relationships I had, which isn't many, just 3.

All long term, but only 1 mentioned wanting kids. She did for a time, open me to it but infidelity on her part led to our relationship ending a little shy of a year.

Now as I try to pave a path forward for myself, I still have to juggle with the problem that male CF patients born in the late 1990s only live 40, maybe 45 years. And I'm 26 now, and way behind the curve to due bad decisions I've made in my life.

This combined with my status as being single makes children a laughable proposition. I can't imagine myself ever ready to handle responsibilities of being a parent. My longevity is a serious consideration as well as me being behind in life.

So I'm gonna lean towards best case scenario, I've got a wife with me when my time ends. And that is what I want most, a spouse. But what my last relationship proved is I'm somewhat amenable, if I love the woman. In that this children issue would not turn into some ultimatum.

I know better than to do something that moronic when the relationship is that special. I'd just have to allow our motivation for eachother to succeed to get me to where I feel ready to take that next step. Do you want kids?

She has been sending me messages with images containing phrases like "you make me happy," "dream of me," "I'm thankful to have you in my life," "you make my day," "I always think of you," "you make me feel amazing," and things like that but most of the time doesn't say anything as affectionate in the actual messages. She explained yesterday that it's very hard for her to be open with her emotions because of her hard life, but that it's "not as bad" with me, which she likes, and I've helped her express them a lot. That made me wonder if she was using the images to express things she was too shy to write. She does usually tell me I'm amazing, the sweetest, the best, handsome, and wonderful in messages. However she shocked me yesterday when she sent "I adore you." She also said "you're very important to me" at the end of our last phone call. That was a few days ago and she hasn't called since, furthering my wonder that maybe she's too shy or scared about what she may say. So now I've really been wondering if she's in love or falling in love with me. I really do hope so, she's the most amazing person!