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So I have kind of like a boyfriend.. it feels like he’s going to be my life partner..

he has blue eyes. He has a daughter, she also has blue eyes..

before I met them I’ve always worn contacts purple, green, grayish green (not blue)

my natural eyes are brown.

Now I feel rather stupid or absurd putting them on because they have natural colored eyes.. I never felt bad about putting them on because it was part of my getting ready routine and it did make me look a little extra more put together like part of my makeup. I don’t really wear any makeup and the contacts makes the entire look come together..

but I can’t help but feel so “wannabe”ish now …

I never saw it that way at all.. and now somehow I feel like I’ll be judged.. in a bad way..

I have a lot of hair for example, and very long, and when girls who wear long extensions ask me about my hair and I reveal it’s all my natural hair, I can feel it in their face expression and mannerisms they feel uncomfortable now that theirs is fake.. they don’t say it but I see it and feel it, and I can’t help and feel the way they look upon finding out they’re fakes in front of that they’re trying to copy..

so my question is.. if I’m with them , should I stop wearing them?

Any guys here with colored eyes? If you found a girl and became your girlfriend an thought about life and family with her, if you notice she’s wearing contacts not for seeing but just to change her color eyes, would that make you feel like she’s a fake wanna be type of impression?

as of now he’s never seen me with contacts at all. I always show myself natural because I feel that is weird.. but if we actually stay together it means I won’t be able to war my pretty contacts again? Without looking all fake? :/

what’s you advice on This?

Should I reach out to him or do you feel it’s awkward and not appropriate?

Yesterday my mom was in town and we went out to a nice restaurant and our waiter was a nice guy who looks like he’s a tad younger than me but we are in our 20s.. he was very nice and he was a nice looking guy.

He was attentive and he told us some of his favorite things on the menu. He did a good job and maybe in the back of my mind I thought he was cute and maybe said it but didn’t really think anything of it.. just a guy doing his job..

He did make eye contact with me even when just talking to my mom.. He did ask questions and asked how I got here since I’m not from this state.. I told him I was an art teacher and I told him how I stopped teaching in December to pursue something else and he tells me he understands completely and he just changed his major in college… did a 180 from film media to production…

I could tell my mom was up to something.. but the conversation was nice and he said he could give us recommendations for things to do and he tried to see if there were any free art tickets to go to the art museum.

My mom embarrassed me and told him I need to meet people and hang out and she ask him for his number and she says “maybe you have friends you can hook her up with “

It’s awkward for me and I tell him that he doesn’t have to do that or feel obligated to and i apologized… it was kind of a pause maybe because it’s awkward but he does say sure and he writes his number down

But I don’t want to reach out because I don’t know if he really wanted to or felt obligated