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Recently I have been under an incredible amount of dispute with my friend. This is the situation, my friend let's call him Eric, has another friend, let's call him Yusuf. Well, basically what happens is that Yusuf is like retarded and he constantly annoys me, to what degree you may ask. Well, he often steals things from my bag or puts things inside, such as rocks. For instance, on time he even put sand in my water bottle filled with water. Every time I confront him, he just laughs and says it's not a big deal. Across these two years, every three weeks I would go up to him and tell him (in the face) to stop and it's not funny. However he just says it's funny for me and does it again. You may think y make a big deal, well imagine having that done to you for at least three times a week! He usually takes my stuff or puts things inside my bag whenever I have my back turned making it extremely annoying. He usually does this when I talk to my friend Eric who sees Yusuf take my stuff or litter my bag when I face him. However, he always refuses to tell me before Yusuf leaves or when it is too late. Considering that we have been friends since year 7, I have never been mad to him. However, the thing which happened on Monday completely made me not want to talk to him. Basically what happened was that I went to the toilet and put my bag right next to his bag and pleaded for him to keep it safe, he nodded and said ok. When I was going to the toilet, I saw Yusuf stalking me, at first I thought he was going to go but he just looked at me go in, I was busting so I couldn't really do anything, I did tell him to fuck off tho. As soon as I locked the door and took the shit, he just banged my door, and chucked my bag in the toilet next door. I saw it as he legit showed it to me. I felt betrayed and angry to a degree I don't know what to do with the two. I could easily bash Yusuf up but by doing that Eric would hate me. I don't know what to do, should I maintain the friendship or not

To begin with, I have lost track of how many cousins I have in total. I was in touch with my maternal cousins until when I was a 5 year old boy. But that’s a question for some other time. Soon, my family shifted to another state for better living. And I got completely disconnected from all of them. Life continued until one of my female cousins whom I knew as a kid, and her mother came to stay with us for a tour of the city. All I knew about her is her name and that her father left their family and ran away, leaving her mother alone with three kids. Now, she is a 26 year old attractive female. She was quite friendly from the beginning and we went to several places to visit. In one of our conversations, she told me that she didn’t have a boyfriend ever. Which was almost impossible for me to believe. During all of the trips, she held my hands wherever we went and always stayed together except when we were asleep. She would tell me that I look more handsome in-person than in my photos. And I told her that she is indeed very beautiful.

As for myself, I am a 22 year old male and never had a girlfriend nor had anything physical my entire life. That could be because of my upbringing, as my parents are one of the strictest I’ve ever seen and I am not kidding. For instance, I had very limited access to a smartphone, television or even a computer with access to internet till I was 18.

For some reason, I felt that she was everything I have been looking for in a partner. And I did have the guilt. Even when we were sitting in-front of our parents, she kept touching my hands and hair. And our parents also didn’t bother. Cuz we’re family! She seemed like a joyful and carefree adult like in the movies. Life would be easier if there was a person like her with me. Her vacation came to an end and we went back to our lives. I would look at our pictures here and then to remind me of her. It’s been a year since then and I am still trying to find a partner.