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Tbh most would just leave I’m asking out of curiosity for myself because my girlfriend of 2 years (21) is leaving for a job opportunity in a different province. I’ve been through lots of shit with her, still love her after the wrong she’s done (saying it like that makes me feel sick but I do love her). I’ve half ass caught her on multiple occasions up until she caught an STI and I tested negative after almost a year of having unprotected sec together (that one broke us up for around 4 months until I saw her at a bar hooked up and got back together). I’ve snooped through her phone found texts between her and this one guy in the past meeting at a hotel while we were dating, I caught her texting another guy on multiple occasions on snap chat once she waited for me to fall asleep to rub herself and I’m assuming sext him in my bed while she thought I was sleeping (though I didn’t read the messages, I knew it was a guy she slept with in the past though and I know she was touching herself for certain), another guy she was really secretive with while we first started dating, one time I caught her dancing on a guy at the same bar I was at with her (unfortunately I lost my cool and blacked out on the guy who I later found out was the guy who met her at the hotel), one time when we were fighting she said she was going to a party with the same guy too. As I write this it breaks my heart because I’ve truly loved her for so long, I wanted to marry her and she has treated me as nothing less than worthless and I would never have done that too her under any circumstances. anytime no matter when in the relationship she was never willing to talk to me about it, she painted me out as jealous, she’d say I’m crazy, she’d say that’s why “we broke up for so long too heal” and the list goes on and on but tbh I’ve never gotten a real genuine answer or proof otherwise she’s cheated on me and I want to give her one but is it unfair to give her one last chance if she comes clean?

2021: Me (31) has romantic interest in somebody I work with (21). She also had romantic interest in me. We started flirting and hanging out. One night she comes over and we have a couple of drink (measured 3oz of liqour in mixed drink with ice). I get up courage to ask to kiss her and she says yes. Night progresses and we end up in bed together and she spends the night with me. In the morning I intimate intimacy again, shortly after she leaves. I messaged her about how special I thought the night was and how happy I was to spend the night holding her (I was head over heels for her for MONTHS before but she had a boyfriend), she tells me that I raped her. I tell her to tell the cops and get a rape kit done, that I'd plead guilty in a second if she pressed charges (as a guy it's not my place to define rape). She says no, we end up dating for about 9 months. During that time she makes a few subtle comments about me what happened, and after talking to her for a bit and realizing she's been unhappy for a while and reccomend therapy. She's goes to therapy and a few months ago left for finishing up school overseas and broke up with me. At this point I had already told her I loved her (felt like I had for a very very long time, since before she even messaged me I couldn't stop thinking about her). While she's been gone I have sent her a message here and there, ar first she responded normally seemingly wanting to have a conversation and even wished me a happy birthday unprovoked. I sent her a video about a month ago that was funny, no message, just trying to give her some laughs; she told me "please stop messaging me". So I have since then until yesterday, which I only said congratulations for graduating college, no response though I'm sure she has me blocked. Anyways to the point. I am still head over heels in love with her. She's been gone for months but is always prevalent on my mind and I know starts working again in a few weeks. . . Can she ever forgive me?