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The only reason I am reposting this for others to answer and see and maybe the one who couldn't because I was having so many errors posting it then only half would post.

When I was quitting drugs and my mind was slipping actually gone it was gone after what I had did at my apartment before I came to live with two of my friends instead of being homeless. I regret how I acted there. So much. When I slept I couldn't control my body I would do this groin grinding action like I was having sex with a ghost. I used to wake up and peak around to make sure no one was seeing. One time it was my dear friend that was so kind to me. I was learning how to read and interact again with society that I had separated myself from for years. I wanted to change I wanted to get stronger because I wanted to be more like my two friends especially the one. One night before I left and before I told her I love here I thought people was going to come in with guns so all night I waited with a knife to bring to a gun fight lol. I understand why she told me to get out. I sent here crazy texts because I was crazy my brain and body was healing slowly and I was struggling to get off the drugs. I wanted instead of tearing down the world around me to make it seem that I am good enough and the people in it to build myself up to be a better person. It was all because I had so much love for one person for who she had always been that I changed I gained my sanity back slowly on the streets by myself the first year I managed to quit the drugs. The second year I realized I was a dry addict with out the drugs and had a fraction of the old behavior with out the drugs. So I gave up a job and a apartment and went to the ogden rescue mission to donate a year of my life to helping others while I help myself doing something I would never have done before. I then went and got my cdl and became manager of a family dollar. I know I acted like that crazy stalker I am feel shame for that.

I've been very passive most of my life, often keeping my differing opinion to myself when in a group setting such as in a classroom, but if someone asked me directly, I'd have little hesitation stating my differing opinion.

For instance, back in high school, a girl was complaining about getting a detention for using her phone during class earlier in the day. I didn't say anything but when she said my name, looked at me and said "right"? As if to ask me to vouch for her seeing as how I was there as well, but to her surprise, I said "well, you've been using your phone in class for quite some time and she's told you multiple times to stop but you continued, so yeah you got a detention for it".

This angered her as expected and seemed to shock her as she's a big figure in the "popular crowd" and likely was used to people affirming her but I threw a curveball she didn't expect.

Over the years, I've become more passive aggressive and about a year ago when a slight change to my medication for anger management, depression and ADHD, I've now become more assertive than passive. I take absolutely no issue inserting my opinion into a discussion when it's contrary to the popular one. Even when there's a good chance someone may get offended by what I say.

While I also take no issue in acknowledging the limitations I have in regards to topics I know little about, like cars and such, in those cases, I make my unfamiliarity clear and delegate to those who are familiar. I also tend to probe others opinions when stated in a general manner, wanting to know what led them to their conclusion.

I'd call this a positive development for me and my girlfriend of 2 years seems to like this development as well. I wouldn't consider myself confident nor self loathing, just realistic and abel to acknowledge that there's nothing special about me.

I am curious how others view this though, do you find it attractive if someone is outspoken and isn't afraid to offend others?