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I’m just wondering whether I should get over this guy. But I have very strong feelings for him, so it’s very difficult. I get the feeling that he doesn’t want to pursue or just isn’t pursuing for whatever reason.

He’s my guitar teacher and taught me a bit at uni… we had sex 2 weeks ago and then afterwards he said he feels bad and like he crossed a line and said he didn’t want to cross it again. But he still blushes around me, looks at my chest and goes red in the face and giggles/chuckles then looks down, and seems a bit flirty still. He did seem very surprised that I had sex with him. He was like “omg kez!” When I went to suck his dick that time.

He seems to really enjoy chatting with me and joking around with me, and seems very relaxed like he can say what he’s really thinking and knows I’m not judging him.
I get the feeling that he wants to get to know me better before having sex again or doing anything else physical. He also seems more relaxed around me after we had sex. I’ve noticed we mirror eachother and it’s like we are in synch with eachother, facial expressions etc. and we even have the same opinions on most things. This is odd because I thought guys usually just want sex?
I can tell he’s still very physically attracted to me because I adjusted my boob and he smiled and blushed and looked pretty turned on.

I've known this one guy since HS, I was a freshman & he was a junior (14 years ago). We went to neighbor high schools but were friends on FB. We were really close or so I felt. He was there for me for my first heartbreak my senior year. During that relationship he confessed his feelings for me. After I graduated we hung out a few times at his place never even kissed but we would cuddle. I liked what we had bc I was afraid if we got into a relationship & we didn't workout then I would lose him as a friend too. He meant a lot to me. 3 years passed & I got into another relationship, this one was toxic & I couldnt talk to him much but when my ex & I got into fights I would reach out to him again. I spent the night at his place once too again nothing happened. Then when I was 2 months pregnant I was in a domestic violence situation with my ex & I had nowhere to go so I reached out to him to stay at his place but this time he said no. he was very cold with me. I was so hurt I removed him from socials and didn't speak to him for years. Another 3 years passed & I moved an hour away. He reached out to me wanting to know about my life & if BD was in the picture. He is not. This time he was in a 2y long relationship. I told him I was hurt because he didn't help me when I needed him. he said it was because he was mad at me for being with someone else & having their baby. I mentioned to him I was moving out of state soon so he suggested we meet one last time & said he could drive the hour to me. I said no & used the excuse that we were still freshly into the pandemic. He added me on social media again & then about a year later removed me. I don't know why. So I messaged him & asked if what I posted had offended him, he said no & that was it. But actually it wasn't I figured since that was the end of our friendship I told him I had had feelings for him previously & the reason I never spoke up about it, that I also felt he was all wishy washy with me. (Continued below)