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I met him in high school. I had a crush and we were friends but he didn’t seem interested. Then suddenly, randomly one day he did, I don't know what happened. He invited me to his prom, he was super chivalrous. We went on a few dates (this started towards the end of us being in high school and carried on into the first year of being in college) he treated me well but I didn’t feel a spark. He paid for our food or whatever we did, and I enjoyed his company but didn’t see it going anywhere. I didn’t wanna hurt his feelings but I couldn’t keep seeing him, especially with him paying I wouldn’t wanna take advantage of him. Anyways I got to the point I just made excuses when he asked to do something cause I was afraid to hurt his feelings even though I probably did regardless. Eventually he stopped messaging me and we haven’t talked since. I’m s few years wiser now. I can look back and see he treated me MUCH better than the guys I’ve been with since. I knew at the time he was such a good guy and I was so mad at myself for not being in love with him, I should be. Any girl would be lucky to be with him. Anyways, I wanna reach out and at least apologize and maybe give it a another chance, if he would even give me the time of day. I’m nervous too though, and I’m nervous to give it another shot and still just not feel any thing and potentially hurt him again, although this time around I would give him an explanation instead of just ghosting. Should I give it a shot or leave it alien?

The guy is Muay Thai class A pro-fighter at the local town's sports centre (Muay Thai oriented). I'm a beginner class B.

I don't know him properly, but I've heard some things about him (mostly good) and I have also looked him up at the fighter's page (he seems to be around my age or slightly older). He's really good at Muay Thai (thai box) and has already won a title and other fight matches as well.

I think I might already have a crush on him. :|

We don't always meet (me being a beginner, him a pro) but when we do he always seems to be looking at me, he comments on the way I do stuff (not always the right way, I have much to learn), he's not rude but he's honest, he's also quite playful, he's noticed it makes me very nervous when he (as an occasional trainer) watches me so we kind of joke about that. 😅 It's hard to explain 😅 My first visit there, he actually let me borrow his expensive skipping rope. He's also always ready to say hi (one time I forgot my stuff there so I went back to this sports centre, I didn't know he's gonna be there and seemed so surprised by seeing me dolled up a little bit in my more normal clothes).

I guess I can't really expect more because we don't meet that often. :/ But when we were getting warmed up, I was supposed to pull him over, he of course did let me win (I guess he sees himself as a gentleman, he has that reputation there, girls said he doesn't punch as hard when sparred against a girl). In that moment, when we touched and held each other's arms, I thought I might have felt something but I brushed it off.

I haven't been with anyone for a long time now so I might sound like a little girl again to you.

I will really appreciate anyone who reads this wall of text of mine and shares what they think.

Hopeless romantic 💕