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am i tripping? there are days im supposed to cry but i didn't. like, if most people went through something that i did, most of them will likely to cry, but i dont. Like, where did my tears go? am i not qualified to cry? i love to cry but i didn't, and why is that. did anyone experience the way that i did?

okay, here's some background knowledge. he's 3 years older then me,4 grades higher, and my sister is 2 years older then me and 1 year younger and 2 grades behind from him. lets call him pineapple. so pineapple is much closer to my sister then me. for example, he follows her insta and always gives her second opinions on her photos, and she follows him back and they go through eachothers phones sometimes. but i also noticed her usually doesn't look at my sister a lot, but mostly at me. pineapple also pulled up a picture of himself flexing in the mirror, and me being curious i said 'why are you looking at muscly men bro' and then he said 'thats me-?' and i just looked embarrassingly away. also on my sisters side she always act so.. different around pineapple like bubbly- and with this snob tone. but! pineapple hates when anyone is left alone like he's protective about everyone-. buttt when we went skiing and i was left alone he said' bro why'd (brothers name) leave you he wasn't supposed to' and then i said 'he told me i was too slow' and then pineapple ended up waiting for someones to watch me (this because i have a very bad sense of direction) and i ended up getting lost and getting level 2 frostbite and early stages of hypothermia, and once i told our group that pineapple looked almost surprised and worried. now on new years pineapples buddy, grape, fell asleep on my hand. and pineapple kept like side-eyeing us a bit, and i was confused since i was out of it. also also! we were going to play ghosts in the grave yard but my brother didn't want to team up with me since it was uneven so i ended up going to my room, changing out of my dress and watching squid game, but little did i know they ended going inside and not playing. and im still wondering why! but the more i think about it he likes my sister more then me. is this because of my age gap or is since i shy away a lot? grape also liked my sister whom i look like?