Search Results: am i a bad girlfriend

Girl 1: she is racist but is nice. What happened was we got into politics and black people and Mexicans got brought up. She said a lot of bad things. Said the literal n word and said Mexicans almost kidnapped her to rape her but that was a lie. I could tell. Other than that, she is very nice! She says this in private and has a black friend. She has a dream to become an FBI agent. Is working through it and is almost a police officer.

Girl 2: she is easily triggered. She has a very short fuse that is easily broken. She will blow up. She is also very nice but her temper worries me. She is a ticking bomb 💣 ready to explode. She works at the zoo.

These are literally my only options!!! I don’t want to be single anymore.

I find it difficult to have empathy for many people under certain circumstances.

For example, this girl is complaining how she is depressed because she can't get a job.

I find it difficult to feel bad because she has a boyfriend and gets to have intimacy. For me, I have never had a girlfriend and haven't so much touched a woman in over 8 years. I never actually made love to a woman. I envy those who get to experience love. All their problems to me are small compared to what I have dealt with. Not only have I been jobless before, but I have also never had a girlfriend, hardly have any friends, and had no life on top of that.

I have been with my girlfriend for three years but I cheated on her after turning 2 years with her. She doesn’t know but I felt so bad for cheating that I made it a mission to be the best boyfriend possible. I buy her flowers constantly because she loves them. I hire photographers to take cute pictures of us. I cook for her. I learn new recipes for her. I am becoming the best possible version of myself that I can be.