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The story is quite big but I'll try my best to sum it up in just a few lines. Hope you guys can understand.
So there's this woman (let's name her Lilly) who is actually my next door neighbor. She's actually 7 years older than me, lol and she also got a brother who's the same age as me. So talking about Lilly. She's a beautiful woman with a killer smile and a fantastic personality. But like everyone else, she also got her own demons and fair share of past traumas. Even though she struggles with anxiety, adhd and other issues, she's the most resilient and determined woman I've ever seen. A true fighter! She's ambitious, driven and passionate about her work and... Yea... I could actually go on and on but... let's just get to the story.
So around this time last year, we started talking through insta. I mean... I always saw as a sister only tbh. So whenever I'd find some funny reels, I'd send it to her along with my own sister who is actually 10 years older than and also a really good friend of Lilly. Time passed by... sending reels and good night messages kinda became a tradition between us. We bonded really quickly and like she'd say... We vibed! I told myself that I think I got a best friend with whom I can share anything. And she also shared some of her biggest secrets with me too. I was slowly falling for her without even realizing that myself cos in my head I've always limited our relationship to just "friends". Long story short, we both fell in love with each other. We did go through an on and off phase in between cos we didn't want anyone to know about us especially our family members cos we come from different religious and cultural backgrounds plus, the age gap. I know it's 21st century and we should have an open mind and all but we r just afraid of losing our loved ones. So we mutually decided to end it cos it was hurting both of us and now after she's gone, there's not a single day I don't miss her and cry. And it's slowly killing me from inside. I can't...

Here's the whole "profanity" story I need to tell you everyone! So today I went to go volunteering, and right after that we got back in the car and a fellow participant uttered, "What the hell?" (twice) as she was talking to a fellow job coach while cruising on the freeway. The job coach (in her 50s or 60s?) that was driving asked him why he was "cussing" for; oh my goodness, I am literally shocked that people still unironically consider words like hell and damn swear words in this day and age. It is ironic AND hypocritical considering that the OTHER job coach (attractive, though I'm not attracted to him because I'm straight; he is in his 20s or 30s?) constantly said hell and damn for the first few hours and NEVER was he told off. Even another participant (a very young and attractive lady) said words like shit and fuck TO that same job coach and was NEVER told off. BUT, that same job coach was telling the uglier male participant that he needs to choose "better words". What dirty, disgusting HYPOCRITES!

I am technically considered average, although I have never uttered a single curse word or even one that is interpreted as one to a job coach because I didn't want to have my monetary reward points deducted. But still, I do not consider hell or damn a "curse word". If you do, I'm sorry but you're a complete sociopath. Even the President uses profane language that is even worse than those two words. Even grocery retails sell products like "Bitchin' Sauce". Dodge even sells cars and paint schemes with the word "Hell" in it. So what's the big fucking deal?

I do not believe in censorship. Capitalism is pro-cenorship of "unattractive" or "ugly" people. Not for the privileged like the alpha "Chad" or the majority of western females.