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My cousin is transgender, and I suspect the guy I was talking to had a sexual interest in transgender women based on things I noticed about him. I opened up to her about how his actions, along with other things he did, left me feeling hurt, unattractive, and not good enough. He ghosted me, and on top of that, I realized he had other sexual preferences that I wasn’t aware of.

I shared my feelings with my cousin, but I still have conflicting emotions about it all. At one point, I even asked her to look at his social media to see if I had missed anything, but then I told her to forget it because I didn’t fully trust her. I worried she might talk about me behind my back, and the thought of that triggered a breakdown because, despite everything, I still have strong feelings for him and just want to feel like I’m enough for him.

However, she went ahead and looked anyway. I found out through my mother that my cousin had not only checked his social media but even attempted to reach out to him. When I confronted my mother, she dismissed my feelings and defended my cousin, saying she would never do anything like that—despite her actions proving otherwise. My mother then tried to gaslight me, saying things like, “I’m sure you’ve done things too,” which was incredibly hurtful.

It broke my heart because I would never betray a family member like that or try to interfere with someone they had been involved with.

Me and my cousin are of same age and ever since we were kids, we would always be together in everything. play, fight, eat, sleep everything. we knew eachother's secrets and always had eachothers back. We would call eachother everyday to update what's happening and how our day went. suddenly from last 10-ish months he began avoiding me. no calls, no texts, no replies... but he would put on insta stories and call my father, but not to me. This really hurt me knowing that we both are legit like BFF'S that our entire relatives loved. So i asked him in a huge para about how horrible I'm feeling. all he said was he has a girlfriend and the only condition she kept for him was, him not talking with me or talk about me (she knew about me cuz he told her about me). I really don't want to keep my ego infront of me and kick him out of my life but also don't wanna loose my self-respect. I really love him (ofc not in anyother way) and ik he too. But do you think he did the right thing? And would you do the same if you were in his shoes?
Also let me know, what should I do?